Dollybird
Mother of a beautiful boy
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Today I had my D&C after finding out last Friday that our little bubs had passed away. Initially I felt that waiting a whole week for this was cruel but actually I think maybe it helped me come to terms with what had happened. as you can imagine at the time of the initial scan I was hysterical.. Didn't really take much in, and as the days went by I began to doubt the diagnosis... I mean how could I have miscarried I'd I wasn't bleeding right? Doh. What a fool. So yesterday at my preop assessment I told the nurse my doubts.. And she was amazing. They took me for another scan to "help me go into the procedure with a clear mind". The radiographer was kind and took her time showing me my baby and explaining everything on the screen. It really helped me. Then the nurse to time to talk to me about my worries for the future, and was incredibly reassuring. I think had I not had the week to reflect, and then yesterday to have all my questions answered that had emerged, then I would've always questioned what had happened.. Questioned if they'd been wrong and perhaps I shouldn't have had d&c. So I guess what I'm trying to share is, that for those of you ladies that find yourselves in the position I was- waiting a week, feeling like its torture- it's maybe not actually a bad thing. I'm still sad, and the hormone crash has yet to hit me, but I guess I feel more at peace with it all. God knows how I'll cope with another pregnancy, think I'll be a nervous wreck, but for now I feel sad but ok. the d&c itself was ok. I cried getting check listed, and cried getting anaesthetised, but the staff where lovely and patient and kind to me. And I'm grateful I didn't need to go through the loss at home. Anyways this is a big ramble, I guess I just wanted to straighten out my thoughts.
Sleep tight little angel
Mama will not forget you. Xxx
Sleep tight little angel
Mama will not forget you. Xxx