had the most traumatic emotional fortnight and now its time to grieve

[smile83]

My beloved childhood pony who had been a part of my everyday life for 20 years died on monday night after a week of multiple illnesses we tried so hard to get him over but it was to much for his heart condition..

A lot of people just don't understand my grief because they've never had such a close bond with an animal, 20 years together and my daily routine was built around him my 20 month old daughter has been asking for him she loved him so much too.

This really couldn't of happened at a worse possible time being 6 months pregnant my emotions have been all over the place but I've had to put a brave face on for my daughter and make all the arrangements for his body to be removed and cremated

Gradually im feeling a lot better but im finding first thing in the morning and when I go to bed at night it all hits me again im not sleeping at all to much stuff going on in my head and I just want his ashes back I won't relax utill he's back home with us.

I've still got my other horse to look after and she's really sad at the moment very lost without her lifetime companion.

I so wish this baby im carrying would of had the chance to meet my special pony that I loved so dearly

 

[Pixiedust22]

So sorry. That's a beautiful pony. Animals can be very dear to us.

 

[Tigerlilyb]

I'm so sorry, he's beautiful! People don't really get why I took the loss of my cat so hard either, I'd had him since I was 7 and went through some crap times with him, he was my best friend as sad as that seems to some people!

 

[RileysMummy]

Aww hun so sorry for your loss, absolute beautiful pony xx

 

[LoveBubble]

He is beautiful, may he rest in peace xxx sadly a lot of people don't realise the bond between human and animal, I lost my dog suddenly 3 years ago, my and my family were heartbroken but many didnt understand why. I now have another dog, not to replace our other dog but my life felt empty without a canine companion. I feel ur pain and hope u feel better soon xxx

 

[Whip]

This is so sad. Had me crying. I don't care what anyone says-animals are part of the family. Huge hugs to you xxxx

 

[Yo_Yo]

So sorry honey they are more than just an animal when your so close to them
I'm sure you have him a good, happy life x

 

[ParisJeTadore]

I am so sorry for your loss. Anyone who has ever had a strong attachment to an animal knows they become another family member and the grieving process is no different to when someone close to us dies. I know it's a small consolation but he is not suffering anymore and I am certain he is in a very beautiful place

 

[EmzyJA]

Oh no I'm so sorry for your loss, what a gorgeous pony!! I love horses but doubt I'd ever be able to afford to keep any. I do take my daughter to go see some at our local country park and there's something so calming about being around them. They're beautiful animals and I can totally understand why it would be devastating to you to lose him. Pets become part of the family and it's always hard when you sadly lose them. Sending you hugs

 

[smile83]

Emotionally im totally drained the stress of watching him deteriorate so quickly and then the hugely upsetting task of getting his body collected its not so bad with domestic animals because you take them to the vets and the they deal with everything you just say your good byes with large animals like horses even if the vet puts them down your left with a huge dead animal in a stable or field with a small time frame to arrange body removal and disposal and that task in itself is horrific because most horsey people aren't to sentimental and will get there horses taken away by knackers men for dog meat or glue to me that's beyond humane I know there dead but I couldn't do it.. the whole removal process of a large horse is generally pretty un dignified and includes alot of dragging ropes and bones being broken so I was determined that that wasn't going to happen to my boy I found a lovely equine cremation service and the guy was really compassionate and my husband land agent managed to lift my boy on to a tarpaulin and carry him on to the lorry so no rope a pulling was used that would of killed me inside.. I stayed at watched the whole process as much as I was advised not to I needed to make sure my boy was removed with dignity and I could say goodbye and watch him leave..

 

[lilmonkey86]

What a beautiful palomino pony! I went through similar 4 years ago when my mare passed away, then six weeks later my gelding passed away (i think he died of a broken heart), I was devastated and everyone just kept telling me to get over it, they were just horses, but to me they were so much more!! being that he was your childhood pony you probably spent many a day telling him your deepest darkest secrets and burying your face into his neck to cry when things didn't go well. just remember that you were lucky enough to have those experiences! remember that you got to share the good times and bad with him and be sure to treasure those moments! may he rest in peace!!

 

[shelleyzeus]

Im so sorry for your loss xx

 

[TryinFor1]

I am so sorry. As others have said, animals are definitely a beloved part of our families. I have had our dog since she was seven weeks old and I dread the day she is going to leave this world. She turns five on Saturday, so we still have a few years. But still.. and to think my kids will be at an age where they will fully understand just upsets me more.

You guys will be in my prayers.

 

[angiepie]

That is so sad, I'm tearing up with you. I would be shattered if one of my cats died. One we've had almost 21 years, she was born here. Animals are the best friends.

 

[Mrs Eleflump]

I'm so sorry for your loss :'(

We lost our beloved cat to cancer nearly 7 months ago. We'd only had him a year and 9 months, but he was our baby and our lives revolved around him. Some people I know don't understand why I still miss him so much and why I still cry for him. We have his ashes in an urn in our study, where we spend most of our time, and we still talk to him and tell him good morning and goodnight.

Animals are such a huge part of your life...after we lost George, the vet sent us a sympathy card with a quote on it: 'until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawakened'. So very true.

You need to take a proper amount of time to grieve for the loss of your friend, and ignore anyone who tells you he was 'just an animal'.

 

[odouglass]

Crying with you... so sorry for your loss. I've lost pets and it is the hardest thing in the world. My emotions are running haywire as I'll be laughing one minute and bawling my eyes out the next. I cried as we were working on Baby Liam's room last night. So, I know the bond that you had with that horse and I really pray for peace as you cope with the loss .