I was anorexic when I was a freshmen in high school. Well thats when it got bad. I cheerleaded and danced, and even tho I wasn't fat (THEN!!) I didn't like the way I looked, especially in my leotard. I think thats what started it. Also, I had moved across the country to Maryland with my dad and stepmom and was miserable. I missed my mom, and whenever I was at home, I was sad. That made it much worse, since I couldn't control my home life, I thought I could control food. On Thanksgiving I refused to eat with my family. My stepmom told me I couldn't leave until I ate dinner, and I remember having 2 bites of potatoes and almost vomiting. I didn't pay much attention to how I was eating less and less until February. My best friend was having a quince and we were wearing short clingy dresses to it. 2 weeks before, she said she wasn't going to eat so she would look good in her dress. I said I would too, and 2 days later she said she had to eat cause she was starving. I hadn't even noticed that I hadn't eaten anything. It was like I knew what I was doing, and then I didn't want to, but I couldn't stop. I was losing so much weight. When I had visited family in CA back in Dec they said I looked great. I finally moved home in April, and they said I looked sick. After being back in California with my mom for a while, and being happier overall, I began to eat more and more. I had her support, as well as my family. It was really hard, and I cant imagine battling it while pregnant. You women are very brave and very strong. Geeze while I was pregnant, there were times where I could barely stop eating! I wish you both the best of luck fighting the ED!
wacko
