Hate being in limbo

[lilmisscaviar]

I was ecstatic to find out I was pregnant again in May after two back-to-back losses but then after two scans confirmed my baby hadn't grown since 7 weeks my nightmare of having another miscarriage returned. At the first scan at 7 weeks we saw a gestational sac measuring 6w6d and a yolk sac only. No fetal pole. The second scan at 8 weeks showed a gestational sac, a yolk sac and a little bean shaped fetal pole. No heartbeat.

I didn't have any bleeding until about 8.5 weeks when I had contraction-like cramping and a gush of red blood that went as quickly as it came. I was hoping it was all over so I had a third scan done yesterday to make sure everything passed. I am about 10 weeks now. Boy was I surprised after all that cramping and bleeding when we still saw a gestational sac still measuring only 7 weeks! We saw a yolk sac that hadn't increased or decreased in size but couldn't see a fetal pole (my midwife thinks it was re-absorbed by my body). The scan also found no reason for the bleeding so we don't know where it came from.

I started having brown spotting immediately after the ultrasound and I thought things were starting to move along but the bleeding still hasn't gotten heavier and in fact seems to be lightening. My midwife was a little pushy about a D&C but I declined. I dread another D&C since I've already had two to prevent a weakened cervix and am trying to wait it out but it is so hard being in limbo. I really don't know what to think of this situation.

 

[Becyboo__x]

 

[sk1ttle]

What about medical management-tablets to help it pass. I was admitted to hopital with mineand given tablets because they dont do d&c's unless its a last resort here

 

[lilmisscaviar]

As an update I am officially in for my third loss. I would be 11 weeks now and baby still hasn't grown. My bleeding has started to get heavy again and I am passing clots. Also one of my best friends, who already has 3 kids and is 12 weeks now, went to the ER for bleeding she was having only to find that she is not only expecting one baby, but twins! As much as I want to feel happy for her, at the same time I'm hurting because I'm carrying around a deceased child, a child that we've wanted so badly after two previous losses. It seems unfair. I'm sure all of you in this thread can relate to how it feels physically and emotionally.