Have to "give my niece back" tomorrow...

[Molae06]

My sister went out of town on Thursday last week and she is coming back tomorrow. I have had my niece who is almost 3 years old since Thursday afternoon. It has been so nice having her the past couple days that now that it's time for her to go home, I feel like I am dying...and she's not even my kid!! What's wrong with me?

It was such a wonderful feeling going shopping etc, instead of focusing on all of the happy families I was able to just feel normal, like we were a happy family as well. It was nice for the past couple days to feel like a normal person, not like some depressed bitter selfish infertile woman.

My niece is talking now and she says the funniest things and makes me laugh etc, we painted together, read to her, etc etc etc, as if she was my own....and now tomorrow afternoon I have to go back to being all by myself, can't even pretend anymore who I wish I was.

I want to be a mom so badly, I want my husband to be a daddy so badly.

After my nieces bath last night she ran up to my husband and said "Look uncle, I so clean. I go sleepy now. love you." It just broke my heart that this won't last, after she went to sleep I just broke down and cried for hours. I haven't been so upset since I had my early mc.

I feel like I'm dying.

 

[Mrs Jewksey]

I have had this hun, when we went on holiday with friends & their little girl. I deliberately avoided her the first day & then she suddenly came upto me whilst I was unpacking & brought me a toy to play with with her.
My friend said "Wow, that's odd, she really likes you! She's normally dead shy..."

I actually felt like stealing her! Only for a moment
Then I just felt worse A) for thinking that B) because she wasn't mine