Having a bad day!

[Laura2919]

Hey girls I'm having a really poo day

I woke up this morning and the girls were being terrors! I got them dressed or more so fought them to get them dressed then took them dowstairs where they kept climbing the stairs (dont have stairgates cos mum and dads stairs are far too narrow and we cant find one that fits ) everytime I brought them down they went back up and I couldnt get ready! Then they went over to the cat litter and was trying to eat it.. Im trying to stop jaycee in the cat litter and chloe from eating cat food and in the end I threw a hissy fit. I started shouting upstairs that maybe someone could come and wake up and help me! In the end I threw such a hissy fit I woke the whole house up! Im so embarrassed but I cant do it on my own if they arent going to help with little things like putting the lid down on the food bin so the girls dont go into it, or throwing their wrappers away! Like my mum has a creme egg rolls up the foil and then leaves it on the table and without fail my two will be there trying to eat it!! Its just little things but they all make a difference!!

I am soo soo sick of being at my mum and dads now! I mean dont get me wrong I appreciate everything they have done but I am always the one who gets messed about. I had a brand new car and I had to give it back for a replacement cos it was faulty, I am the one who ends up with the shit partner and I have to cope alone, I am the one who gets a house and is the only mug still waiting to move into it.. I just feel like I cant take much more

I want my own space and my own life away from all the memories! Is that too much to ask for!!!

Sorry for the rant girls! I am just so sick of being the one who loses out!

 

[bloodbinds]

I can try to understand but i only know a fraction of what you are going through. You have double the responsibility, and you have been used to having your OH around to help out, where me and my OH broke up while i was pregnant, so all i ever knew was the single life.

I sometimes wonder how you've coped so brilliantly so far, on your own, with two of them!! And even worse at your parents house - i know i'd hate that!

Have you thought about moving away? Making a fresh start? Might be an idea!

Hope you feel better soon

 

[Laura2919]

Yeah I accepted a flat from my council but it needed work! It needed a new kitchen and bathroom and they were doing it all. Its been 9 weeks and still nothing! They said they are still waiting for the keys back from Connaught but the place has been empty so there is no work going on! Im just sick of feeling like I have my own place but I cant move there! I just want them to give me the keys!

 

[frankyzw]

Aw hun, don't beat yourself up. That's life, there's always the bad day. But things are looking up for you. It's only a matter of time before you get your own place with your two girls. You've been given another chance to have the life you truly deserve. When things go bad just think of all the good you have now. You've got a family, food, clothes, a job, a place to stay, an ex who helps with the girls. Looks pretty good, don't you think ? Chin up.

 

[Laura2919]

I suppose your right! I just feel rubbish! I want to move into my place and all my mates are like oh when do you get the keys! Well I havent a clue! My mums house is loaded up with boxes, the kids room and my room is loaded up with suitcases and boxes its just plain awful!
Sometimes I think why do men have it so easy! When the twins are older will they truly understand all I did and that it wasnt with his help at all??

 

[expecting09]

Just keep thinking that your not gonna be there much longer. Have you tried getting hold of your council again to find out whats going on? We all have bad days (although I seem to have them more than good days at the min!!) xx

 

[Laura2919]

Yeah I contacted them a few days back and mum did too and all we get is a load of rubbish! The place isnt finished (which I know is crap because I have been in it and I have seen that it is all finished)... They said they dont have contact with connaught until the keys come back in!!!
Its terrible!

 

[Aidedhoney]

Know how you feel hun xxx

I too amwith my parents and it sucks big time..............normally i just get Alex off to sleep and someone bloody wakes him up lol

I hope you get the keys soon xx

 

[Laura2919]

I spoke to them today and connaught said they handed back the keys so my mum called merton back today and they said that the keys were then handed back to connaught cos the wall was still damp! He is going to inspect it tomorrow and will call me back by friday!! Lets hope when he calls on friday its to book a time to pick my keys up..

Keep everything crossed for me girls xx

 

[Aidedhoney]

Everythings crossed lol

 

[Laura2919]

Thanks huns! Hopefully I hear back before Friday! Im really hoping its to say the keys are back I dont think I can wait out any longer lol