Having a bit of a self-pitying day girls :(

[littlekitten8]

I apologise now for the tone of this lol. I am feeling utterly wretched the last couple of days. I was doing fine by myself and actually felt better than I had in a while. Then James got sick and it really hit me how alone I really am. He started throwing up early hours of Friday morning and by Friday lunchtime I was feeling really sick too and had an upset stomach. And of course I had to look after him regardless and fight to get fluids into him and panic about needing to take him to hospital. Luckily he is doing a little better now and I am no longer feeling sick but have a damn chest infection! But since Friday I have just been feeling so alone and down and close to tears alot. I think its probably just cos I' not feeling brilliant but I hate feeling like this. I'm normally such a strong person and I hate feeling vulnerable I just feel like its about time I got my break in life (have had a pretty rough 18 years but won't go into details cos it would shock alot of you) and its starting to get me down that the break just doesn't seem to be anywhere in sight.

Anyway will stop being all melancholy and stupid lol.

 

[missmisty4]

Awww Honey! Im so sorry! Keep your chin up! If you ever want anyone to talk to Im here anytime! (I had a self pitty day today to, so I understand) There is always a light at the end of the tunnel! Like I said keep your chin up!

 

[littlekitten8]

Thanks hun x guess it was just made worse by being surrounded by happy couples. My brother and his gf were here last night cuddled up on the sofa, my parents are happily married, my sister and her bf were all loved up last night, and my other brother just got engaged. So am definitely the odd one out!

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hugs hun we all have days like this.

Its allowed xxx

 

[sweetlullaby]

There's nothing more horrible than not being well yourself and having to still battle on and look after LO. It really brings you down when you get better you'll look back at this and wonder what you were on about! But we're all here for you

 

[MissE007]

Try not to let things get you down. Easier to say than do but its impossible to not have these moments, every so often everything gets on top of you and it feels like it'll never get better...but they always do! Hope you're back to your usual self soon enough

 

[littlekitten8]

Thanks girls. Doesn't help that I've now got to take James to the out of hours dr cos he wont drink and has diahrroea

 

[sweetlullaby]

Awwwk Hope James is ok! And hope you get better soon as well

 

[littlekitten8]

He is ok. Typically after we got home he took 5oz no troubles.

 

[missmisty4]

Thanks hun x guess it was just made worse by being surrounded by happy couples. My brother and his gf were here last night cuddled up on the sofa, my parents are happily married, my sister and her bf were all loved up last night, and my other brother just got engaged. So am definitely the odd one out!

Yea I def understand where you are coming from! Just keep your chin up and know that one day thats gonna be you all loved up, snuggle up, and happily married one day! it will happen! Just one day at a time is all you can do! Cheer Up buttercup and I hope that your LO is feeling better and you as well! PM me if you need to vent or wanna chat!

 

[expecting09]

It is hard, but we get by! And it's always the way, as soon as you go to see someone they seem fighting fit again lol

 

[littlekitten8]

Thanks girls. I am feeling alot better this morning. Bloody hormones lol.

 

[sweetlullaby]

Knew you'd feel better soon

 

[dom85]

glad your feeling better.

 

[lou_w34]

Awww glad your feeling better!
Sorry ive only just seen this, my laptop has died =( but my dad has me borrow his!

I have days like that too lol, but i think its normal, we do so much of the hard work ourselves, its hard to find time to be just us and relax a bit, so it can make us a bit stressed, well it does me anyways!

I hope you and lo feel better soon

xxxx

 

[littlekitten8]

Yeah exactly Lou. Theres no break. I have a damned chest infection and my parents wouldn't even help me with him. I was so upset.

 

[lou_w34]

Awww poor you

Thats sad that they wouldnt help out, i know he is your responsibility, but you cant help being ill.

I think the thing is trying not to let it get to you too much, because i know that when i do that it makes everything seem 10 times worse... easier said than done though!



xxx

 

[littlekitten8]

Yeah I know what you mean. I am feelin more on top of things again today. Just got the better of me I guess. It didn't help that FOB didn't seem at all concerned that James was on the verge of being hospitalised. He was more concerned with the fact its his other sons birthday on Saturday so he is taking him out for the day today and then having a little party.

 

[sweetlullaby]

What a complete tosser His son is nearly hospitalised and all he cares about is his other son's b'day!

 

[littlekitten8]

Yeah that was my point lol. I could quite happily have screamed at him.