Having a bit of a wobble

[Razcox]

Had a bad couple of days and having a bit of a wobble this morning, i just feel a bit down in the dumps and like this pregnacy is doomed. Last night i kept checking my CM as i was sure for some reason i was going to see blood, then i caught my cervix with my nail and did make it bleed a bit so my CM is a tiny bit pink this morning but at least i know why. I was so angry with myself for causing this though.

I just wish i could settle down and stop worring as i know this is not doing any good for either of us. And if i am going to MC, which i have had no signs i am, there is nothing i can do about it anyway . . .

Then i feel so silly for being so paranoid I am guessing the hormones are not helping with any of this which is i guess a good sign.

 

[littleblonde]

Morning hun. Im the same. I had a loss with my 1st and was a complete worring mess with my 2nd. I actually bled at the same time with kacey early on and had lots of blood. So that made it worse. I said to myself when i get to 12 weeks i would relax and i didnt and then when i feel her move but that didnt relax me either. I can remember laying on the operating table having my section convinced they would say she was gone and then when she came out and sneezed and i saw her and she was wiggling and i said to matt is she ok and he said yes (im crying now grr pregnancy hormones). I regret it so much as i did not enjoy it a single bit. I honestly convienced myself that i would never have a baby (i was told in 2008 that my tubes where blocked and i could not conceive). SO now im pregnant agagin. My symptons are so much less this time and im convienced its a bad sign. I to check my cm thinking its blood. But im trying to stay calm. It is easier for me as i do have kacey. I feel so jealous of thoses 1st time mummys who have nothing but excitment. Have you had any scans yet? we are due a similar time so if you ever feel ready for a bump buddy with someone who is just as worried. Let me no. xx

 

[Razcox]

Thanks hun, i just feel so low and teary today which must be a good sign i suppose. Not got any scans booked as the doctor said it was too early to book me in at 8 weeks and to go back in two weeks if i dont MC. I dont think her negative attitude helped me either today.

I am going to ring the EPU next week to speak to them as they were lovely to me last time.

 

[Peril]

Awww sorry you are feeling this way hun. I have lost 3 babies and when i first got pregnant this time i too was knicker checking. I couldn't relax and kept thinking the worst. I am 20 weeks today and just starting to feel movement, and i can say that i am only just starting to relax and enjoy this.

Its such a hard thing to go thru, and i am very sorry for your loss.

Phone the EPU, mine were brilliant with me. Saw me at 7 weeks, as there was not much point in seeing me before as it would only cause worry if the baby was too small to see the HB.

Best wishes for this one xxx

 

[littleblonde]

i have been seen already for an early scan. Although my risk was ectopic. I cant berlieve your doctor when i go they are nothing but positive. what symptons are you having? The feeling teary is a sign. Im waiting to bleed as i have bled with kacey and my loss. I dont no how to be pregnant and not bleed.

 

[Razcox]

How far along are you? I am trying to wait until at least 6 weeks before i try and get a scan so i stand a chance of seeing anything. I am guessing i will have to wait until 8 weeks though which is only 3 weeks away i guess . .

Not had any bleeding other then what i caused last night and a bit this morning but it was a tiny bit and looked like the blood you get from a cut so i think its just where i have nicked the side of my cervix. No got any pain other then the dull cramps which are normal. I wasnt this bad with the last pregnacy but then that went wrong at 11 weeks so i am guessing the two losses have just added up and made me worse this time.

My symptons have been quite good, on and off sore boobs (i have a bouncy walk which is a nightmare), hearburn alot, queasy tummy a lot and my boobs are bigger. Also tired but very restless at night so its a bit of a neverendig cycle.

 

[Razcox]

Just wanted to say thank you for all the support, i am pleased to say my status has now been upgraded to 'fine' and i havent done a CM check since 9am. Damm hormones!

 

[Mummytofour]

That's fab news Razcox!

Wanna be bump buddies and freak out together?!!!

 

[hb1]

totally normal to have wobbles - I still have them now - it's v hard after a loss.

In a way you need to accept you will feel like this from time to time - especially around milestones and scans - and when you recognise you are worrying you can only really try and logically remind yourself that this little bean has every chance.

Take care

hx

 

[Razcox]

That's fab news Razcox!

Wanna be bump buddies and freak out together?!!!

Why not! You, me and Littleblonde can worry together x

 

[foxforce]

Aww Raz guess it is a sign of the hormones! I have been teary last couple of days and very hormonal.

I have been better last couple of days, not as much knicker checks I think it's the thinking that there isn't much you can do if it were to happen, all you can do is TRY relax and stress less and be positive

Hope your feeling better xxx

 

[Lucy1973]

Razcox, it is totally normal to feel so scared and anxious after losses...also the hormones make you so emotional which doesn't help. I have just tried to take one day at a time, am still nervous but scans are the worst thing..I have one next week.

Hopefully we can all support each other and we will be sharing baby pictures next year!