Having a hard time

[wish2bmama]

I'm just not dealing well with the loss of my Twin Baby B today. I can't stop crying. I am 16 weeks today with my surviving miracle, but I should be 16 weeks with my twins. It's so aweful when people who knew I was having twins ask me how the twins are. It just rips my heart.

I guess it hurts even more knowing I will carry it to the birth but never be able hold it, kiss it, take it home and give it all the love I have to give it.

DH wants to go shopping for a crib this weekend, and I am excited yet so crused that we will only buy one. I thought I was handling this well, but today is just so hard. I don't really know what to do.

Thanks for letting me babble on xx

 

[debgreasby]

hugest hugs hunni xxx

 

[TripleB]

Oh sweetie, you've been incredibly brave and its completely normal that you are still grieving for Baby B. It must be so hard but I hope you are able to enjoy preparing for Baby A's arrival, it might be just what you need. We're all here for you xxx

 

[Beadette]

Oh hunny, I'm so sorry you are having to go through this pain. I think most people would feel exactly the same in the same situation though babe so please don't feel guilty for not fully enjoying your pregnancy at times.

Lots and lots of loves to you x x x x x

 

[hb1]

W2B It is so natural to feel like this - your emotions are working against each other - grief for Baby B and happiness for you Lovebug

hx

 

[Amos2009]

 

[Tulip]

Sending love sweetie. Has hubby told the family about Baby B's wings yet? Kisses to you and Lovebug xxx

 

[Jox]

im sorry for your loss of Baby B. I know its no where near the same but i had to carry my son for 3 days after we found out he had died and it was torture... your very brave and your Baby B will be so so proud of his mummy. His brother/sister are having special time together before he goes to heaven

xxx

 

[wish2bmama]

Thank you for the kind words everyone

Tulip, DH told them in person when we went home. DH's mom was horrible about the whole thing, but my FIL was really great and supportive.

 

[babysimpson]

W2BM - I went through exactly the same feelings as you did when I was expecting my twins last year. You just don't know how to feel as you're empty but still have that remaining chance. I didn't cope well at all when it happened to me and the only thing that helped was my OH would sit down beside me and wrap his arms around me but say nothing. I soon realised that there is still a baby there which needs attention and care and I concentrated on that.

 

[Tulip]

That's good, I know he was dreading it. Sorry about the MIL... I just don't understand some people

Jox is right, they get to be together for a while, Lovebug is looking after his/her twinnie xxx

 

[wish2bmama]

Jox, that is a really sweet thought. I like the thought of that xx

Babyattempt3, I am sorry to hear of your loss Thank you for telling me your story xx

Tulip, I agree. I don't get some people either. She isn't a nice person, so I try to just let what she says in one ear and out the other.

 

[babysimpson]

Just try to keep remembering that you still have one precious baby growing inside and it has to be the priority now.