Having a hard time..

[ZombieQueen]

I moved back in with my parents over a month ago, husband was seeing another woman behind my back.. I thought I would be okay once I just got away from him, but I'm struggling so much. I hate what he's done, the choices he's made, and I know I'm so much better off without him.. but with my little girl due in 38 days, I'm feeling so overwhelmed and terrified.. I'm not ready to be a mom, let alone a single mom. I want my husband and family back. I hate that this happened.. I cry every day. I miss the jerk.. I know things will never work out between us, and I don't necessarily want them to, I'm just so devastated that my little girl won't have her daddy. I wanted nothing more than a family of my own.. I'm not ready for this.. I want my little girl to just stay put until I can get a grasp of my reality..

Sorry for the pointless thread, I just feel so alone and scared..

 

[Love My Bubs]

Big hugs xx
I feel pregnant to my ex fiance last year , he left me when I was 7wks & made my life miserable then came back to me months later & shortly after I had a miscarriage at 22wks . He proposed & we got pregnant again , at 12wks he left again . I'm currently 19wks & so upset . Each day I think of him & want him back but I have no way to contact him . After losing our son & getting engaged & pregnant I thought everything would be ok but it's not . I should hate him for what he has done but I love him so very much ! I understand how u feel xx

 

[Dezireey]

So sorry you feel so crappy, totally understand - hugs xx

Its one, if not the hardest things I think any woman has to go through, its soul destroying and you are totally at the mercy of the arrogant and selfish decision of another person and their wishes get granted regardless. I know some people think men have a hard time of it if a woman keeps a baby from e.g a one night stand but he can and most often does walk away and can live in denial for the rest of his life. Most women just cant do that, so it sucks. My dreams of a family were shattered to and I was utterly devastated in the beginning. The hatred I had for FOB was unreal! Now, I pity him and his stupidity and i am so glad that i am not living a life as a selfish individual like him. You must focus only on your child and pour all the love you have onto your baby. You will be so busy when LO arrives that you wont have time to think about FOB anymore. chin up, you will cope xx