Having a very hard time. Don't know where to post...

[justplay91]

Hello, ladies. This isn't all directly pregnancy related, but I honestly don't have anyone else to turn to anymore and the people on this site are always so supportive. Last Wednesday night, my younger brother whom I've always been close with attempted suicide. We still don't know how he woke up, with all the pills he took. He's now hospitalized, but they're giving him drugs that are making him worse and he hasn't seen a psychiatrist the entire time he's been there. They won't let him out and now my family has had to get a lawyer because they're giving him harmful antipsychotics when he is most definitely not psychotic. Anyway, my mom is unmarried and has no one else to turn to (she's also quite needy even in the best circumstances), so I've had to pretty much be at her side 100% of the time to keep her sane. Which is pretty much impossible with a 10 month old and being pregnant.
We also have to move apartments in under 3 weeks and we have nothing packed and no where to move yet. We were supposed to go on vacation in a few weeks but at this point I just don't think I can handle it. Today we've received "hidden charges" from our old phone company (not even sure it's legal) but I've just paid them because right now I don't have the emotional strength to dispute anything. I almost broke down crying on the phone with their customer service. On top of everything, it turns out I've been diabetic this entire pregnancy (despite my doctor's insistence that I wasn't) and now I'm terrified my probably constant high blood sugars have harmed the baby. I just want to see it on a scan to know it's still there and growing properly, but my anatomy scan isn't for almost 5 weeks.
I don't know how much more I can take. Whenever a stranger is rude or even less than kind to me, I feel like losing it again and sobbing. It's probably in part because of pregnancy hormones, but I just don't know what to do anymore. OH is supportive but just doesn't really know what to say or do to help me. My family is unavailable because of my brother, and my best friend is super busy. I feel like I'm just whining at this point, and I'm sorry for the long rant. Thanks for your time b&b'ers.

 

[maryanne1987]

I really don't have any advice to offer you hun, but Im very sorry for all your dealing with. That would be alot for a non pregnant women but all those things on top of being pregnant and already a mum must be really tough on you. Make sure you get rest, and be kind to yourself, your only human and there is only so much you can do without making yourself ill. Hope things settle down for you soon. Hugs.

 

[tcinks]

Oh honey, sorry so much is happening all at once. Could you maybe talk to you doctor about your concerns and try to get seen sooner?

 

[o0oCharlieo0o]

Oh hun what an awful situation for you, all that stress nd worry, i really hope your brother is ok and gets all the help he needs xxxx

 

[2have4kids]

Sending you massive hugs, it sounds like you're going through too much right now! You don't have control of what's happening to your brother, try not to take on too much of a load yourself, your mother is a grown woman and will deal with things as she must. It almost sounds like you need a vacation, even though its a terrible time. You were brilliant in dealing with the phone bill, do what you need to to handle your family matters and shake off everything else (to whatever extent you can). Nearly impossible right? My sister has suffered with anorexia for years, being close to death now on 3 different occasions. You can only do so much and in order to stay strong you have to take care of your health and right now that includes your baby too. From what I've read you're so early on that if you follow doctors orders on maintaining blood sugar levels through a strict diet the outcome on your baby can be minimal - but that is up to you by taking care of yourself. You can do this, when we think we're going to break there is something that rises above the sheit, I hope you can take care of yourself, that is no. 1 priority right now. Sorry you feel so overwhelmed, we're all here to support you xx

 

[lau86]

That's a lot to be going through. I hope your brother is better soon and you can get your diabetes sorted. Look after yourself and rest as much as you can x x

 

[Eleanor ace]

Oh goodness you poor thing . I wish I could say something to make it better for you! I hope that your diabetes can be controlled quickly now and that your brother will get the help he needs

 

[tallybee]

xxx

 

[AJae]

No advice but please keep talking. To each other and to us. Sending strength and love. And a silver lining.

 

[MnGmakes3]

I'm very sorry you're going through this and wanted to offer some support from a medical standpoint.
I work in a hospital and have seen too many attempted suicides to count, it's sad.
Please try to remember that if your brother is not of sound body and mind that a psychiatrist will most likely not attempt to talk to him. If he is being sedated it could likely be that his fluid/blood/ body levels are not quite where they should be and they are constantly monitoring those levels until everything stabilizes. Depending on what he took it could be days before everything looks normal-ish.

I hope that gives you a little solace. I've never seen a hospital give psych meds to a non pych patient UNLESS the mix of (whatever person took) really caused a psychotic break. I'm not saying this is your brother but the brain is a powerful organ and I've seen too many times where psychotic breaks occur before seeing a positive change. Just keep in mind that like any medicine, it can take days to work before noticing an effect.

I pray your brother gets better soon and your family is able to support eachother.

 

[jlw617]

I'm so sorry for everything you're going through! I can't imagine having to go through all of that especially at once! One thing I can reassure you on is the gestational diabetes, even if you've had it since day one which is extremely unlikely, gd gets worse the later in your pregnancy you are. I was diagnosed early on with it but my numbers really didn't start getting higher (to where it would create a problem) until just not too long ago so now you just need to watch how you eat but I'm sure baby is just fine. I hope you can somehow find some peace in this storm.

 

[justplay91]

Thank you ladies so much. The diabetic diet isn't too much of a problem for me, as I had GD with my son and was very good about monitoring it. I'm mostly upset that my doctor was so certain I didn't have it but I failed my recent glucose test, so now I'm worried I've had it the entire time and could have caused problems. I realize I'm probably being irrational, and you ladies have definitely made me feel better about that. Plus I moved my gender scan up to this Wednesday just so I can see baby and hopefully that will help calm my fears.
As far as my brother goes, I suppose we will just have to see how it goes. I'm just worried we're going to lose him and there's nothing we can do about it.
Everything else is really just the cherry on top. Things that normally wouldn't bother me are hitting me especially hard right now. The upside is, I talked to OH tonight and our communication was definitely better. I know I put too much stress on him, and it isn't fair to expect him to be able to take all of my problems away.

 

[Lionheart03]

I don't have advice to offer cause I'm really bad at giving it, but I do hope things look up for you, sending many good thoughts your way

 

[Twag]

I just wanted to send you my support and some much needed virtual try not to take on the world hun you can only do so much and right now you and your babies are #1 priority
We are here if you need to talk/shout/rant away