Sometimes there is just no answer to ease your pain. I lost a baby at 10 weeks, I felt myself pass it while on the loo but couldn't bear to look back at it. I have now accepted that something was obviously not right and baby wasn't developing properly as I had a scan only that same day and baby was there, heart beating away but not measuring the size it should have been. It hurt like hell, and all I wanted to do was cry but also get straight back on the band wagon and try again as soon as I could. Now I'm expecting a beautiful (so far) healthy baby and to some extent am thankful things happen the way they did otherwise I wouldn't have this baby to look forward to. Don't lose hope, you'll get your rainbow baby and forever be reminded of how delicate life is and how thankyou you are for the gift of life. Hope you feel better soon xx