BumbleBump
Mummy to 3 girlies!
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My first post here
Some of you may or may not have seen my previous posts in the relationship forum, and 2nd Tri. I'm really too tired to go through it all again, I guess what matters is I'm single now and have to deal with it!
I'm probably better off without him. Maybe I should have responded to his leaving for the night as a solution to our arguement over him not spending quality time with me with an "Ok dear, have fun". Or his actions a few days later (after he spent the night with me curling up watching a film - which is all I wanted - and then sleeping with me) of popping to our old flat to "check the mail" and then sending me a text saying he'll see me the next morning when he drops me at work and the LO to school and refusing to answer the phone to me. He wants space? Fine, he can have it - but I'm not pretending the relationship is going to work when he won't sit down and talk to me like an adult. He blamed it on me being stressed all the time, and how for the past few months I've been tired and sick (HELLO?! 4 1/2 months pregnant here! ) and that I never open up to him - yet he's the one that runs away instead of talking things through.
I don't want it to be over, I'm in shock at the moment. Desperately scared of how I'm going to cope with a 4yr old, work and new one on the way. I called in sick yesterday and today which I feel so guilty for and worried about but I honestly couldn't cope.
He turned up this morning - I had told him not to bother taking me to work, which to me implied also not to take the LO to school as I drop her off on my way. Really didn't want to see him as I was in tears. He's giving me mixed signals saying he just needs time away to sort himself out and hugging me as comfort to my tears - but we've been here before and I can't keep hanging around for him to "sort himself out", he should be here supporting my pregnancy not picking and choosing when he decides to see me.
So, I've done myself up so I can go to the shop and get something nice for lunch, and I guess I'll use the time to play some mindnumbing runescape until he drops LO off tonight. All I wanted was a nice, stable relationship but I guess that's too much to ask for. Trying not to give in to the tears again but it's sooo hard.
Some of you may or may not have seen my previous posts in the relationship forum, and 2nd Tri. I'm really too tired to go through it all again, I guess what matters is I'm single now and have to deal with it!
I'm probably better off without him. Maybe I should have responded to his leaving for the night as a solution to our arguement over him not spending quality time with me with an "Ok dear, have fun". Or his actions a few days later (after he spent the night with me curling up watching a film - which is all I wanted - and then sleeping with me) of popping to our old flat to "check the mail" and then sending me a text saying he'll see me the next morning when he drops me at work and the LO to school and refusing to answer the phone to me. He wants space? Fine, he can have it - but I'm not pretending the relationship is going to work when he won't sit down and talk to me like an adult. He blamed it on me being stressed all the time, and how for the past few months I've been tired and sick (HELLO?! 4 1/2 months pregnant here! ) and that I never open up to him - yet he's the one that runs away instead of talking things through.
I don't want it to be over, I'm in shock at the moment. Desperately scared of how I'm going to cope with a 4yr old, work and new one on the way. I called in sick yesterday and today which I feel so guilty for and worried about but I honestly couldn't cope.
He turned up this morning - I had told him not to bother taking me to work, which to me implied also not to take the LO to school as I drop her off on my way. Really didn't want to see him as I was in tears. He's giving me mixed signals saying he just needs time away to sort himself out and hugging me as comfort to my tears - but we've been here before and I can't keep hanging around for him to "sort himself out", he should be here supporting my pregnancy not picking and choosing when he decides to see me.
So, I've done myself up so I can go to the shop and get something nice for lunch, and I guess I'll use the time to play some mindnumbing runescape until he drops LO off tonight. All I wanted was a nice, stable relationship but I guess that's too much to ask for. Trying not to give in to the tears again but it's sooo hard.