Hi

[mccloskey82]

I am 32 and my hubby is coming up to 40 I crave to have a baby, hubby has scar tissue in his tubes from twisting his balls when he was younger so when he goes for a sperm test they tell him, theres nothing there.
We are using donar sperm but my eggs as apparently there is nothing wrong with me, just unexplained fertility.
After 13 yrs of trying loosing 2 and then having nothing we seeked helped, we have had 3 rounds of iui that didnt work, my last round was the best with 4 follicles, I was on clomid and menopur as well as the trigger shot, ov on day 15, which has seemed to stay the same, my period has changed from 3 days of medium flow to 5 days of off and on, this plays with your head.
I have been off the drugs for 2 cycles now but we had 5 cycles if drugs which included the 3 they did iui with.
But nothing I did a hpt last month on day 2 of bleeding but it said not pregnant. When I*start bleeding I feel a failure as a woman and very hopeless, at least whn I didnt know I still had hope but now all that has gone away. I try talking to my hubby snd he just tells me to suck it up, I have ivf left but will it work when nothing else will?
Why have I put in weight?
Why cant i loose anymore weight ?
Are my emotions down to the clomid?
Why am I feeling like I am failing?
Why has my period changed?
Can anyone help me please????

 

[Myshelsong]

You are not alone. Your feelings are completely normal and your husband is being a Dick because he is unable to produce sperm.

Clomid makes your hormones crazy and you need to realize that you ate going to over react and feel like the world is against you. Just know that you are but alone.

I suggest joining a support group on here. There are ones for women who's husband have zero sperm and there is an entire thread devoted to people who are using assisted conception.

Surround yourself with people that will understand your bad days and give you faith there will be good days.
Best of luck

 

[SoBlessedMama]

I am so sorry you are dealing with this--that is heartbreaking to try so long, and you definitely deserve your little one. I agree with myshel that a support group would be a huge benefit. She's also probably right that your husband is being defensive because maybe he is feeling a bit left out of the whole scenario. I really hope you find the support and answers you need, and I hope it all results in a BFP very soon!!!