Thanks all of you, I appreciate it so much
I'm trying sooo hard to not think anything of this and to not get my hopes up but it's so so hard when I'm so late and have symptoms
I honestly have no clue what's going on but I do feel like I could be pregnant. Deep, in my heart, I can sort of tell. But at the same time, I'm ignoring it. Or at least, trying to.
I don't temp chart no cos I work shifts so it's really hard to be able to take it the same time every morning. I do keep track of my symptoms everyday from ovulation but that's something I'm going to stop if this isn't my month cos it's just gonna get out of hand and get my hopes up.
You know, as crazy as this sounds... I've got so fed up of this and got to the point where I'm thinking I'm just going crazy that I've even begged AF to come.. isn't that stupid?! I don't want AF here at all but I just want to know one way or another so I can either move on or get care asap. But she still hasn't arrived.. so I guess that could count as a good sign, maybe?
It's actually quite stressful. I never thought trying to create a whole new little life would be this hard and this stressful.. I was in for a huge shock. If somebody had told me that making a baby was difficult, I wouldn't have believed them at all.
I want this baby soo soo much. I'm scared just how much this is going to hurt me if it turns out I'm not pregnant. I knew I shouldn't of got my hopes up but it's so hard missing a period and having symptoms and not wondering 'Am I pregnant??'
Wow, sorry for the essay. The words just seem to be flowing out of me right now.
Anyway, thanks all of you for supporting me everyday, it means an awful lot to me and I wish I could show you all some way of how much I appreciate each and every one of you and everything you all have done.
xxxxxx