hormone crash after ERPC

[jaspie]

He's great! He's a bit sore but not in agony and can walk around and sit up in bed and on a chair downstairs. He went to the physio this morning and they are really happy with how he's coming along they say he's doing great! It's so lovely to have him home. We're going to have a cheeseboard and a bottle of wine tonight and do our guest list then we can start looking at venues when we've got our numbers

 

[Blu10]

How exciting, do you have a date in mind? I love weddings 😁
What do we all have planned for the weekend? Were going to take DS to see the aeroplanes then local pub lunch today which will be nice. Were likely to be heading towards fertile time at the start of next week so three guesses what's on the agenda this evening hahaha 😆

 

[jaspie]

Woohoooo! Go blu good luck! Sounds like a nice day planned. It's raining here I'm just having a lazy morning in bed with OH we're thinking next summer so june, july or August next year, whichever has the best price / availability. Not Glastonbury weekend though as half our friends work there every year!

 

[Blu10]

Its so exciting, the day goes so fast though. My DH would like to go to glastonbury, neither of us have ever been. Your lazy day sounds good, were going to have a lazy morning today.
How are you Bernie? X

 

[hopie2015]

Oh friends, this has been a nightmare week. Good thing is today is first day my mom is really stable. I am praying so hard. I will write more below.
First time signing on to catch up and big Congrats to Bernie. Such wonderful news!
Fit- I am so sorry. Have to believe like Blu says...but really there has to be some light at the end of this tunnel. What a year it has been is right.. I can't even put into words how I feel. I am still shocked. I am really not strong enough to handle all of this.
Jaspie- thank you so much for your very dear thoughts and words. I'm so glad your fiance is recovering well.

I haven't left the hospital since Monday. I can't bear to leave my mom. I am too close to her and though so grateful I have had a mom for a long time in my life, I can't lose her yet. It is selfish to say, I know but I just can't imagine going on without her. I always thought she was so strong. Healthy. Just the other week she was complaining she was so tired and shortness of breath. I was so stupid to not put two and two together. I thought it was older age and dealing with my dad being ill.

The doctors said they can now perform the surgery on her tomorrow. It cannot be the minimally invasive surgery we so hoped for. It will be 6 hour open heart surgery. It kills me to type that.
I am hoping for prayers from others from anyone and anywhere...healing thoughts. Her name is Lucille. She is the greatest lady I know. I would do anything for my dear mom to be okay..Anything.
There is no love greater than child and mother. Blu- I'm sure you know.
There's a chance I can't have my own baby. So please I beg God to let me have my mom for just even just a while longer.

Sorry to go on.. You are all so supportive though. 8:00am - 2:00pm tomorrow will be the longest hours of my life. I think I have to request a drug to knock me out or something. How to get through that?

Thank you all so much. In the short couple months we were all on here, I really consider you as friends.. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for the healing thoughts.
Fit- my prayers are with your dear father-in-law, and much strength for all of you.
xx

 

[jaspie]

Hopie it sounds like you are in hell at the moment, i can't imagine how you are feeling. Never say you are stupid, you couldn't have known it was more serious. And it wouldn't have changed anything if you did so please don't beat yourself up. You're being the best daughter ever being by her side and being close to her at this awful time, she'll appreciate it so much. I know it doesn't feel like it right now but you are strong enough to deal with this, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger and although you are in the depths of winter right now you will come out the other side into spring and be stronger for it. I will be praying hard for you and your mom tomorrow xxx

 

[Blu10]

Oh Hopie, thanks so much for sparing time to update us at what must be an awful time. Im aending loads of well wishes to your mum Lucille and all the family, hope your Dad is feeling better soon. Please let us know how the op went today, love to you all xx

 

[Blu10]

Should have said too not soon x

 

[Fit_Mama2Be]

Aw Hopie I am so sorry to hear about what you and your mom are going thru. I will be praying that her surgery goes well and that you get many more years with her...both you and the rainbow baby I truly believe you're going to have. I know this feels like more than you can bear, but you ARE strong.

Jaspie, glad to hear DF is doing well.

How are you feeling Bernie?

We weren't sure if FIL would survive last week but thankfully he did and they were able to get the stint in. It is his b-day today so the whole family is going to the hospital to celebrate.

 

[jaspie]

Fit mama so glad to hear that your FIL has pulled through! Is he out of danger now? Hope he has a great birthday with all of his loved ones around him!

 

[bernie86]

Hopie- I am going to definitely be praying for your Mom. I really hope everything is OK! And I know how hard this all is but I've been there with my Dad so I can tell you that even if you dont think you are strong enough, you are because God is with you and he will give you the strength you need for every situation. I also think just being there for her all this time and now as you wait for the surgery you are really helping her.
Blu and Jaspie- sounds like you both had nice relaxing weekends! and Jaspie so exciting about the wedding planning. Its so fun! i loved planning mine.

Fit- Im so glad to hear that your FIL is doing so much better thats wonderful News!

As for me it has been a pretty uneventful weekend... just spend sometime with our friends and just lazed around yesterday... we even streamed church on the computer and watched from bed! Im finding that my energy is extremely low already!

 

[Blu10]

Oh fit thats fab news regarding you father in law, hope the stent helps him to feel better and he has a lovely birthday x

 

[Blu10]

In a way bernie im glad you feel like poo.... no offence but hopefully thats a good thing for sticky beanie bubs?? Hope youre resting.
My 4 yr old is driving me potty tonight...maaaan i love him to death but my gosh!! Can you list kids on preloved?? Lmao! Joke xx

 

[bernie86]

I agree Blu, I dont mind feeling tired or nauseated at all.... I feel silly in wishing I had stronger symptoms! I just feel like that will help me get through until week 10 knowing that the little peanut is there! I honestly cant help but worry a little even though I feel like this is completely different. 2 more weeks til my appt so maybe that will help

 

[hopie2015]

Thank you all so very much. You are the best and nicest ladies on the planet.
Mom's surgery today was canceled. They found a problem with her gallbladder. Praying tests today come back as treatable. I am in shock. She was up crying all night, holding my teddy bear. Sweetest lady ever, please let her recover.
Jaspie you are so sweet .. Your kind words and advice help me more tgan youll know.
Blu thank you soo very much for sending positive thoughts
Fit...i appreciate your prayers so very much. So glad they were able to give your dear FIL the procedure and he is feeling better. Hope you all have a wonderful birthday celebration with him. How is your husband doing?
Bernie. Thank you so much for the prayers! I know you know all too well and your telling me i will find the strength to get thru this helps so much
I am so glad for your news. Worrying is only normal. When a worry thought comes to mind, recognize it and then replace it with a positive thought. That used to work for me. Im reading a pamphlet someone gave me at hospital. It says that God gave us a spirit of peace. He never meant for us to be full of stress and worry. He tells us- keep your peace, everything will be fine. Stay at peace and know a new beginning is happening. I hope that helps. I feel it helps me

Xoxo and thanks to all of you

 

[Blu10]

I know what you mean Bernie, i felt totally different with DS and just knew it was all going to be ok! I have everything crossed for you.
Hopie, Im sorry to hear that your mums op was cancelled, hope theres nothing serious wrong with her gallbladder. Keep praying and doing whatever you need to be strong my lovely, hugs xx

 

[Fit_Mama2Be]

Hopie will say more prayers for your mom, I really hope everything gets better for both of you and soon! Good advice about staying at peace...in a weird way it reminds me of yoga and finding your stillness. It can be so hard to stay still just like it can be so hard to be peaceful but the reward is worth the struggle.

LOL about your son Blu. A friend was trying to get me to adopt his teenage daughter the other day so you're not alone!

Bernie I am glad to hear you are wiped too! (Sorry). That's how I was my whole first trimester and it means the pregnancy hormones are going strong!

My FIL's celebration was nice. Don't know how much longer he'll be with us but we're appreciating our time with him while he's here.

Still missing my baby and feeling sad about him. Don't know if it will ever go away. Just feel robbed I guess. Thank God for you ladies who understand.

 

[hopie2015]

Thank you Blu and Fit
Mom's surgery is confirmed for 8am. Have no idea how im going to make it through as unbelievably my dad has had some sort of breakdown. I cant believe any of this. Please let my mom be okay and life get better. I would do anything. Thank you friends. C

 

[Blu10]

Good Luck Hopie! Huuuuuge hugs xx
Fit I'm glad FIL enjoyed his day, hope he gets more quality time with you all. Sorry you're feeling sad 😢 xx

 

[jaspie]

Glad FIL had a nice day Fit. I'm sorry you're sad, life can be so unfair sometimes. I don't think you'll ever stop missing your baby but it will hopefully not always be so consuming xx
Hopie I'm sorry about your dad, i hope he gets better soon. I'll be thinking of your mum today good luck xxx