Hormones and emotions!

[AliciaX]

 

[LoveMy2Boys2]

I'm so sorry to hear this unfortunate situation :/ I really think you should talk to so embody, like a therapist/councelor. Somebody who sees your situation from
The outside and will give you direction , support, encouragement, and guidance ...... You need to be healthy and stress free, I hope you can fid your way soon a d stay strong!!! Hopefully baby will change your partners ways.... It may be just what he needed to get his stuff together wishing you the best of luck!!

 

[LoveMy2Boys2]

Sorry for the spell checks and wierd sentences. On my phone and sometimes it freezes as I type :/

 

[AliciaX]

Thank you for your reply. I think I was just having a moment. My partner has been very supportive but I just can't bring myself to trust him or let him in which is causing issues. And him going away for 2 weeks and not having him here when things are going majorly wrong has felt more irritating than it should have done. He definitely needs a break from my hormones! X

 

[skyesmom]

i guess the hormones aren't making a complicated situation any easier.

I don't wanna sound rude or make it harder for you, but... i know how it feels to crave the unconditional love you feel you are lacking, and are looking for it in all the wrong places (your mother, your boyfriend to substitute or make up for the lack of affection in your family, your friends, etc)... and this craving worse than any drug addiction i tell you.

the thing is, although we all have expectations on being loved by our closest ones, expectations that are rightful to a certain extent, there is a certain love no one else can give you and that is the love towards your own self.
find that, and you won't need your partner to make up for the lack of love in your family. find that, and you won't need your mothers' approval.

this may come through as a bunch of hippie bullshit, but there is truth to this. loving yourself and accepting yourself the way you are without turning outside for confirmation, may not solve your housing problems in a day or make your mother a saint. BUT, what it CAN do is change how you deal with things.

You may miss the affection of your family, but you won't feel like your guts are being pulled out every time you're being rejected. actually, it won't feel like rejection, but more like accepting of their incapability to give or do otherwise.

it may not change the circumstances around you, but it can do wonders for the pain you feel inside when these things happen.

 

[silmarien]

I am so sorry for your current situation. But I wouldn't try to get back with your BF at the moment. Make HIM crawl back to you with PROOF he has changed if he wants to be a part of your baby's life. It sounds like a very toxic relationship. You deserve better.