Well, my bleeding that started yesterday has pretty much turned into AF-like bleeding so I'm pretty certain this baby has gone too
I'm trying to just think of this as AF and not a miscarriage, but I had stupidly already started getting my hopes up about being pregnant. I'm more sad for the loss of my hopes rather than for this baby - it feels very different to my second tri loss.
I'm just finding it so hard right now to not give up hope. All I want is to have a family, and the baby we lost in September would have been our first. Its so unfair that so many people in this world don't plan or want babies, don't look after themselves or their children properly, but they end up with big families anyway. All I want is one healthy baby of my own to love and bring up but right now I just have no guarantee that I will ever carry a baby to full term - I feel like I have this extra level of sadness and despair in grieving for the loss of this dream as well as grieving for the actual baby I lost.
I'm not quite ready to give up trying for a baby of my own just yet (I'm still keeping adoption as a very distant back-up plan), but how many more times will I have to cry myself to sleep and how many more babies will I have to grieve before I get my rainbow? I don't want to offend anyone who holds religious beliefs, but I'm not particularly religious and I don't believe that losing my babies was 'meant to be' or part of some bigger plan. I can't find any sense in this other than bad luck, and nature and my body failing me again. It's just so unfair.
Are there any success stories you ladies can share about people who have had losses with their first and subsequent pregnancies and then gone on to have a family? Any words of hope and inspiration will be of great help.
Thanks x
I'm trying to just think of this as AF and not a miscarriage, but I had stupidly already started getting my hopes up about being pregnant. I'm more sad for the loss of my hopes rather than for this baby - it feels very different to my second tri loss.
I'm just finding it so hard right now to not give up hope. All I want is to have a family, and the baby we lost in September would have been our first. Its so unfair that so many people in this world don't plan or want babies, don't look after themselves or their children properly, but they end up with big families anyway. All I want is one healthy baby of my own to love and bring up but right now I just have no guarantee that I will ever carry a baby to full term - I feel like I have this extra level of sadness and despair in grieving for the loss of this dream as well as grieving for the actual baby I lost.
I'm not quite ready to give up trying for a baby of my own just yet (I'm still keeping adoption as a very distant back-up plan), but how many more times will I have to cry myself to sleep and how many more babies will I have to grieve before I get my rainbow? I don't want to offend anyone who holds religious beliefs, but I'm not particularly religious and I don't believe that losing my babies was 'meant to be' or part of some bigger plan. I can't find any sense in this other than bad luck, and nature and my body failing me again. It's just so unfair.
Are there any success stories you ladies can share about people who have had losses with their first and subsequent pregnancies and then gone on to have a family? Any words of hope and inspiration will be of great help.
Thanks x