Lynseyology - i'm so sorry to hear of the IVF not working. I think we will go for FET soon, we have an appointment tomorrow morning with the fertility hospital. It might sound soon but when you have carried a baby for 24 weeks and its snatched away so cruelly you only think that you want that feeling, love and bond back. NOTHING will ever replace Shaylee, she was of course unique. I would like to think one day she will try and come back into this world with a better chance and healthy. Thanks for you kind words.
Cupcake Queen - Thanks hun, always a good friend. We did the ultimate for her. We got no help financially and it cost us quite a lot of money but things like that are of no significance when you lose your daughter. I would like to think we made her day so very special for her. You know the most memorable bit of the day was when we released the balloons outside... as they gathered height and sailed off they all stayed together. We watched them for several minutes just flying free. It was then i felt she left, it was almost like they were taking her. It was very emotional and even typing this makes me cry. You never think this will happen to you....
TO EVERYONE ELSE
Thanks so much for you kind words, its still tough but then it always will be. Some days are brighter and then other days are dark. I am just coping how i can at the moment.
Its so nice to think that people just take those few minutes to read her story or offer some support and its very much appreciated. Maybe one day I can help other people, though i hope and pray to God that nobody comes to me to tell me their child has been diagnosed with this condition. Its funny the knowledge you learn along the way in life. I know an awful lot now about Hydrocephalus now, some people (like myself before this happened) don't even know what it is... its normally something you never have to learn about. I wish that had been me but sadly it wasn't. I just hope she is at peace bless her.