hyperemesis sufferers unite!

[craftymum]

Well girls I tested my urine tonight and the dreaded ketones are back - that's what I get for trying to outsmart HG I really can't bare to drink anything tonight but I guess I'll have to try to force myself tomorrow as I really don't want to end up back in neely on the drip again esp at 6 and 1/2 months when it's hard to sleep and my back aches etc. The Doc has told me that fainting is very unusual at my stage but I am just so malnourished that it'll prob keep happening but it's so scary and so depressing when I can't do anything or go anywhere

Sam when I went for my big scan the doc asked me if there was anything I wanted to know and Stephen just said to her well the only thing we'd want to ask is the one thing we're not allowed to and she just said would you like to know and we said well, yes if bubs is playing ball and she just told us so I would say just ask and you never know but like Kat says it depends who you get on the day, good luck with it!

Kat I can't believe someone actually touched Ruby's lips that is just weird!! Did you tell her off? I would be freaked as God knows where her hands had been!! My baby is estimated to weigh just over 2lbs at the minute so I've no idea what that means to expect, I know they can also get it so wrong as they did with Ruby but I'm just so scared I'll end up having a giant even though I'm still really tiny but they say the size of your bump is no indication of the birth weight as we all carry differently. I'm also getting a bit freaked out by how the hell I'm going to manage labour and get up to hospital as I'm just so weak and for the last 2 weeks I faint everytime I get into the car

 

[claire99991]

Just want to say I carnt get on my Internet on laptop here in wales so I'll update you with my sickness when I get bk lol hope ur all ok xxxx

 

[Stilletto_Sam]

Girls, thanks! Can you remember Kat what the doc looked like or her name? (I'm grasping at straws here for a head start!)

I cannot believe, especially at the height of all the to do about Swine Flu that a complete stranger tried to put their hands near a newborn, nevermind on her lips!!! What did you say? I would have cracked up big time!

Claire, hope that you enjoy some of your holiday. It can't be fun with a toddler, your family and hyperemesis! Maybe this will be a chance to get yourself some relaxation. I hope so!

Louise, what are you going to do about the ketones? Seems no matter what you do, HG can't be beaten, can it? Would sucking fruit ice lollies help with getting some fluids into you? I suppose you'll want to hit me if I ask whether you've tried it yet...


Mucho love.


XXX

 

[craftymum]

Sam the Doc I saw had fair hair, kind of bobbed wore glasses and was tall and thin, not overly chatty and to be honest we thought she looked a bit scary to start but she was fine.
I have tried the ice lollies but there's only so many I can handle. I drank some fluids this afternoon and within 5 minutes I threw up really badly, I am just so fed up with this as I don't think I'm gonna get a break from this at all and the thought of another 2 and a half months of it is hell. It's the fainting as well as I've fainted 6 times within 2 weeks and there's nothing that can be done to stop it. I nipped out to homebase today just to get a couple of things for the nursery and it killed me, my back was in agony and I felt absolutely ehausted from it and then of course once I got home and started puking just put the icing on the cake.

 

[craftymum]

Hi everyone, just thought I'd update you with my wee bump pic taken today at 29+4

 

[Stilletto_Sam]

Aw, Louise! Such a cutie tiny bump and you're so slender-bless you! I would look like an elephant beside you.

Thanks for sharing. If you all haven't seen my bump in my journal, I'll post yesterday's 19 week one along with today's scan pictures later.

All went well today. We saw everything. The sonographer (a Karen somebody) was really friendly and chatty AND we found out what we're having! (Well 90% sure, but that's good enough for me for now!) More relieved that all appears to be well so far, to be honest. That's all that matters after a sleepless and anxious night!

Anybody feeling any better today?


XXX

 

[craftymum]

Hi Sam, your wee bump is fab, how are you getting on, are you happy with the gender of your baby? my bump looked huge this afternoon though as the constipation is setting in so I am so bloated at the min, I'm feeling like crap tonight, just feel sick and so so tired, cant breathe and my back is in agony too, been sitting on my gym ball to see if that helps but it's not doing much so far so might have to resort to the hot water bottle treatment, I'll be so glad when this is all over as I really don't feel like me anymore at all and I'm so fed up not being able to go out anywhere without passing out at some stage along the way.

 

[Stilletto_Sam]

Yes, Louise, I'm veeeeeeeeeeeeeeery happy with what we're having, completely thrilled infact, but like you, we have decided not to tell anyone and keep it a surprise till December.

Sorry you're still feeling crap. I log on here most days in the hope that maybe you have turned a corner. I know it doesn't really help, but I feel so sorry for you and wish I could even suggest something that might relieve your illness for a while Have you tested for the ketones today?


Here's Puddin' (as I call baby as it's due Christmas Eve)

First pic is of the face with the wee arm up by the head, apparently just like I was lying on the scan room bed! Second pic shows the side view with the knees and legs bent. Nothing like a laid back bubba, is there?

 

[craftymum]

Aw bless Sam, what a cute scan, in ours the baby was lying with both arms by the head and it's little ankles crossed now it feels like it just keeps sticking it's bum up into my ribs as I cannot get a breath at all!
Have you told your other kids what you're having? It does make it easier when you know whether to go for the pink or the blue side when you're in mothercare!

I now have 10 weeks and 2 days left and I am counting and really really hoping I go early, I haven't tested for ketones today have to get some more ketostix as I was a wee bit obsessive with them when I first got them lol!

I find I can control the vomiting now by not drinking though I will still feel like I'm going to throw up, but I can't get this fainting under control at all and it seems to be triggered when I'm in the car so don't know if it's the movement or the position I'm sitting in, I've tried changing this, reclining my seat, cushions behind me etc but all to no avail so far - I really feel like a pensioner, my back is breaking and I can't sleep at night either, I'm just so tired all the time - my dad asked me yest was I doing any exercise!!! He's a typical man and just doesn't listen or seem to get how bloody awful I feel all the time.

This whole HG thing has completely ruined this pregnancy for me as I thought by now I'd be able to get out and about more but I can only travel so far now - I didn't even make it as far as Ards on Sat before I fainted which is crap! This should be an exciting time going out and buying stuff and getting prepared for it all but it has just been taken away from me and I do feel really bitter about it as there's only so much shopping you can do online somethings you just need to see, touch, play around with first but I guess for me it will all have to wait til after bubs is here. Then there's Christmas just after, don't think I'll be worrying too much about it this year to be honest cos when I can't get out and about and when there's so many other things left to do before bubs is here I really think I could do without the added stress (I'm such a stresser by nature anyway)

Hope everyone else is doing ok, I'm not long up but already I can't breathe and my back is crippling me so here's to another wonderful day ahead!

 

[craftymum]

Ugh having an awful morning so far, I actually started throwing up without even having had anything to drink so I then had to go and get a huge drink just to help it all and it is just awful I really am so fed up with this, almost 30 weeks and no sign of it relenting at all

 

[craftymum]

I've had a terrible day today, I've felt so ill and so tired and my back has been in agony all day. I went to bed at about 8pm and managed to sleep for a couple of hours but now I'm wide awake and sitting on my sofa with a hot water bottle for my back, it's just so sore I cannot get comfy at all, I took some paracetomal but they did nothing to ease it at all, I really do believe us HG girls get much worse back pain due to the constant strain we put on our muscles from being so sick all the time.

 

[craftymum]

I have a predicament - I find if I don't drink I wont be sick but I'll feel much worse, then when I do take a drink of something sweet I'll feel a little bit better and it seems to give my energy levels a little boost but then I will throw up everything and feel like crap again! I thought maybe my blood sugars were low but then surely they would have tested for this at the hospital when I had my blood tests. I don't know what I can do to try to make this even just a little bit better as I am putting off drinking for as long as I can because my tummy is so sore from all the constant vomiting and my back aches too which I know is to be expected at this stage but I really think that all the bending over and straining when I'm sick isn't helping. I sit at nights on the edge of my bed leaning forward onto the window sill as it seems to give my back a break and it's the only way I can breathe but I can't sit like that all night. I'm so fed up and I know everyone is saying to me now that I don't have long but I still have 10 weeks and if I go back in time that's the same length of time since I had my big scan and that feels like so long ago as it's just been hell for those 10 weeks so another 10 like that is really driving me to despair as the problem is the longer it goes on the worse it gets as I just get weaker and my body just gets tireder and seems to be giving up on me. My days are so long and I just feel so depressed and lonely and now I am scared at the thought of going out as everytime I get in the car I faint and then I feel really horrible afterwards. I really don't think I'm going to be able to manage labour I just feel so weak, so tired and so sore. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up when it's all over. I'm also now feeling afraid of food and I know I will be so scared to try something normal after the birth, I think I'll be sticking to the tea and toast for a while until I'm certain as I really really thought that by 30 weeks it would have got a little bit easier but instead it just gets harder and harder. Stephen said I don't want to go before 37 weeks or I'll not get into the home form home but right now I just don't care about that I just need this to be over soon I just don't feel like I can take much more. I really thought when I'd started to get out a bit on a Sat morning that maybe just maybe it was the start of it improving for me but isn't mother nature just a bitch cos now it's like I took 1 step forward and about 30 steps back I really don't want to end up dehydrated again either as it was bad enough at the beginning but to be stuck in hosp now when I'm so sore and uncomfortable too while they bring round the roast dinners and curries to the other patients - no thanks! I was up half the night then I managed to get a couple hours sleep and I went downstairs at 7am and by 8:30 I had to come back to bed even my very legs felt like I'd ran a marathon and I slept for a couple of hours but it didn't do me much good it was more of a my body is knackered sleep than a proper restful sleep. I'm sorry for the mega long whinge but I just feel desperate now.

 

[Stilletto_Sam]

Craftymum, didn't want to read and run. I'm sending you my thoughts and good wishes as I have a fair idea how desperate you are feeling.

I'll try to reply properly later on after I get the feeding frenzy over with in this household!


I'm only up the road and if you're ever feeling lonely and need a shoulder to cry on, feel free to contact me.


XXX

 

[craftymum]

Thanks Sam I think it's also the fact that I cant really get out and about much that's doing my head in, I really will be so glad when this is all over as 10 weeks may not sound like much but when you feel like this it can feel like a lifetime.

 

[NIfirsttimer]

awk lou.. i know how desperate you are feeling. its awful. theres no point in me giving you all the talk about how it will soon be over etc.. its true, it will.. but i know myself that it means nothing when you know you are gonna feel like this tomorrow and the next day and the next day. 10 weeks may as well be 10 years its miserable. i agree that the throwing up makes your normal pregnancy aches and pains worse.. i remember trying to get close enough to the loo at 40 odd weeks.... it hurts all you can do its just rest when you can, drink when you can, and stay strong and keep fighting.
dont worry about how you are gonna eat when this is over. i was worried about that too.. i was worried that id somehow trained my body to need to vomit so much, and that i would keep on going once she was here, or that i would be afraid to eat, or to eat certain things, but once she was here, those thoughts didnt even enter my head, and havent since. its completly amazing how you can be so ill for so long, then instantly feel better. literally, the minute i delivered the placenta i was 'fixed' everything you read etc agrees, so im pretty confident you will be the same too. its amazing.

 

[NIfirsttimer]

heres a little ruby fix for you all....
shes so much more alert this week!
bathtime... she loves the bath!!!!
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little jailbird...
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serious face...
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making sure her soother doesnt fall out.. she does this all the time!

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[craftymum]

Kat she is just so cute, Love the way she's not letting that dummy out of her sight! Where did you get the bath support and is that in a big bath or a baby bath? Just we have a baby bath and I wondered if the supports would fit in them cos I hate the idea of bathing a slippy baby with my big clumsy hands lol
I actually found a girl who has been suffering the same fainting in the car as me would you believe! She's American and she said she seen cardiologists and everything as they couldn't find a reason for it, in the end they came to the same conclusion as me that it is the weakness from HG and the positioning of the seat in the car that crushes the vena cava and that added to how baby is lying just cuts off your blood supply completely causing the faints, I did try at the weekend reclining my seat right back with cushions behind me but it didn't work so I don't really know what else I can do to try to help this I'm finding it hard to breathe as it is as baby is right up there in my ribs and it gets so so painful sometimes too, I wish it would drop a little bit as I know some people do drop this early but others don't drop til they're in labour so I really hope I'm of the former!
I would still like to try and get out at the weekend we'd hoped to maybe pick up our pram but I don't know what to do as I don't want to faint again cos it is so horrible then it just makes me feel really really sick and I always cry after and want to go home too. Has anyone any tips on how to make breathing a little easier or how I can help stop this fainting?
On the plus side, Stephen has the nursery finished, it looks lovely, it's painted in wild primrose which is a lovely soft lemony colour and the curtains which are a green with little dots of different colours through them and the uplighter which matches the curtains has a little lion dangling down from it are up, we're just waiting on my sis in law bringing the cot round now so we can arrange the furniture, then it's just finishing touches like pictures on walls and rug on floor but they may have to wait til after bubs is here, the room is just opposite our bathroom and I swear I go to the loo with the door open and just sit there and look into the room!!

 

[Stilletto_Sam]

Oh Lordy, Kat! I could just gobble Ruby all up, she's soooooo gorgeous and precious!

Love the dummy clinging - sweet!

Thanks for sharing with us.


XXX

 

[Rebaby]

Just popping in to see how you're all doing, i'm sorry you're still suffering so much lou i wish there was something i could do to make you feel better

I am still vomit free and it's incredible, knowing how much of a hard time some of you are still having i have vowed never to take it for granted, so i am thankful for every day without sickness.

I still have the most terrible acid reflux, the worst i have probably ever had (and i have suffered with it for years before getting pregnant so that's saying something!) I was back at my GP's yesterday and he has started me on ranitidine, which isn't licensed for use in pregnancy but which has been used for years without harmful effects. I must admit to being a bit twitchy about taking it, when he said it wasn't licensed, but we give it to a lot of our babies at work so i figure it really can't be that bad, and if it gives me some relief then what other choice do i have?

Anyway, just wanted to send you all some hugs.

Those pics of ruby are gorgeous kat, she is a little stunner

I am getting increasingly excited about meeting our LO and getting to know him/her, the weeks seem to be flying now...almost in double digits.

Big hugs ladies

 

[craftymum]

rebaby, it's great that you're still vomit free, not so good about the reflux though, have you tried the usual gaviscon etc? I know what you mean about being wary though I was told by the consultant at the hospital that the baby has done all it's developing by now and it is just growing so any meds you take are less likely to cause any harm and if your Doctor thought it was very unsafe he wouldn't give it to you, I guess he just has to air with caution and warn you about these things.
How is work going?

Just a wee tip to you all, steer clear of nuts!! I tried a few mixed nuts earlier (cashews, walnuts and hazelnuts) I only had about 6 and OMG they are absolutely horrendous on the way up again, they really stick in your throat and taste so vile too! I just thought I could get some of the fats and proteins from them into me but what a bad idea!! Looks like I'll just stick to my toast, cheese and fruit!
I think the fruit is the only thing keeping me hydrated as in the evenings before I go to bed I'll have a wee bowl of mixed fruit salad - melon, strawberries and kiwi usually and I guess this is what's stopping me needing that drip so if it's staying down I'll keep doing it and I am a big fruit eater anyway (I'm the only one in this house that does)