I threw him out, totally sick of his attitude telling me to stop moaning, you wanted to be pregnant so just get on with it... I threw him out. I'm feeling SO SICK, threw up already. He pushed past me throwing his elbow into my back which pushed me into the rocking chair which unfortunately sits at womb height. Really crampy now, dont know if its the stress or the chair... Time to be a single mum again... it's just really scary thinking about trying to do this alone with the HG... I'm so exhausted and I'm trying to make dinner for Saraya... eugh He's always had an agressive attitude but never been physical until a few months ago he grabbed my arms and tried to restrain me [for no reason other than we were arguing, I wasn't doing anything to make him do that] I think the scary thing is as well I left my abusive exhusband and I'm like WTF? He stood there and told me he didn't put his elbow out?? Emmm yes I elbowed myself into the chair right? I'm just upset, angry... angry he didn't TRY and stay, that he didn't fight for me, for us. The whole fucking lot.