I am delusional.

[bohemiangel]

The arrival of AF this morning marked the end of an emotional roller-coaster ride that was my first ever TWW. During the past two weeks I have had to pee every thirty minutes, developed a ravenous appetite, aversion to alcohol, enhanced sense of smell, morning sickness, was woken up from a deep sleep by intense waves of nausea, watched my bb's grow a cup size nearly overnight (honestly!), had a triphasic chart, vivid dreams, stuffy nose, unusual pulling sensation in my lower abdomen, and... nothing. Four of the biggest, fattest, most negative HPT's ever throughout the last week and of course the arrival of AF tell me that I am most definitely not pregnant and never was. I am sad, discouraged, and actually a little disturbed that I cooked up all those symptoms with my apparently very active imagination. I know that some PMS symptoms like bloating and moodiness can seem like early pregnancy because of the progesterone, but... really?! This is what I have to look forward to for the foreseeable future?

Feelin pretty bummed right now and could use some words of encouragement How do you ladies go through this month after month without driving yourself nuts?!

 

[Fizmie]

Hey...
I know exactly how it feels.... been having these every single month since last December 2013... very disappointed every single time... but thank god DH has been supporting...
Try to divert your attention or energy somewhere else...
Meet up with friends or go for a with bffs...
I hope you stay positive and never ever gave up yeah!

Cheers,
Fiza

 

[cncem]

I'm so sorry you went through that. I went through that for a Very long time last year, months and months, it was awful I know how you feel. Best thing to do is take a test every time you have symptoms and if it's negative, it's negative. I didn't believe the loads of negatives I was getting, even read up on how some ladies even had periods through their pregnancies, so despite my af showing each month I believed the symptoms, even started to feel what I thought was fetal movement, crazy. Just take a test and believe it, until it's positive. Good thing you got over it quick.

 

[HKateH]

I realised after a couple of months that ovulation triggers the same reactions (sore boobs, bloating, spots etc) and when I really thought about it, hunger/low blood sugar was very easily confused with nausea and dizziness. My advice is to keep a record (I did this on my iPhone) of how you feel each month and you'll begin to notice a pattern. I found my symptoms really ramped up the two days before AF.

When I was pregnant the symptoms were very different and I didn't get that 'pre AF feeling' a couple of days before, so more of an absence of symptoms really.

 

[Tink_]

Hey lovely,

I can relate a lot to this and I guess especially in the beginning it is even harder because you are not yet used to your body and mind being able to interpret all these symptoms and magnify them into something bigger. It really does suck

I do the same as HKateH and track my symptoms with an app on my phone so I can pinpoint what is 'normal' for me and what might be different, but I also try and think of logical reasons other than pregnancy that I might be experiencing certain symptoms. Not that it stops me from getting excited at times!

Thinking of you xx

 

[bohemiangel]

Thank you so much for your kind words and helpful suggestions, ladies. I guess this was just a good learning experience for me to know what to expect from here on out. I think I'll just try to ignore every "symptom" I experience in the two week wait from now on except a very late period and/or a positive pregnancy test! Cheers and babydust to you all!
Xoxo

 

[SoBlessedMama]

You're not at all delusional! TTC is a crazy roller coaster that makes all of us a bit nuts. We tried for 7 cycles before getting this BFP. I completely convinced myself 6 of those cycles that I had every pregnancy symptom known to man. The one cycle that I thought I was out was when we actually ended up pregnant lol.

Don't feel bad--we all do it unintentionally. And you're exactly right --PMS symptoms mirror early pregnancy symptoms so closely. So when you're analyzing every little thing, it is hard not to assume. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way right now--but you are most definitely not alone. : )

 

[TTCgamer2.0]

Nothing like the TWW to doubt your sanity! Since this is your first cycle trying...could I recommend the book "Taking Charge of Your Fertility"? I just wish I had ordered it months ago, so I figured I would suggest it right off. Tons of information that I never knew! It helped me feel more in control of my body, which is rare in the TWW.