Anja
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and I am so scared!
It has been totally my decision, and my husband doesnt want us to split but we have been literally fighting to keep our relationship going since the day we met. My husband doesnt work as he has been a stay at home dad, but when our daughter went full time to school I asked over and over for him to start to look for work. When I fell pregnant he promised that he would definitely get a job.....4 months down the line and he has only applied for 1 job. He is lazy. he spends all day watching daytime tv while I work hard to try and support us. He washes up every day and tidies the lounge about once a week, but that is the sum of his contributions despite my asking him time and time again to help me out. I pay nearly £250 a month on his booze and fags and I have had enough. The resentment has been growing and growing as have his excuses and now when i look at him I feel nothing but anger.
The final straw came the other day when i had my hair cut really short (I have a habit of doing this when i dont feel in control of my life). when i got home he took one look st me, rolled his eyes and turned his back on me. Not a major thing but enough for me to decide that I can not carry on living with this man and actually have any happiness.
I am young (33) and want to make the most of mylife. I want to have fun, laugh and fill my time positive things. I know I have made the right decision and I know my future will be so much brighter as a result. Unlike my husband I am surround by a very loving family and alot of wonderful friends (hubby is a hermit who has no friends and doesnt like going out). Despite this I am absolutely petrified of bringing up 2 children alone and I am absolutely riddled with guilt about taking the children away from their daddy. he is a terrible husband but he is a wonderful, loving father.
Please forgive the essay.....I could write a full book at the moment.....I guess I just want/need to get it all out!!!
It has been totally my decision, and my husband doesnt want us to split but we have been literally fighting to keep our relationship going since the day we met. My husband doesnt work as he has been a stay at home dad, but when our daughter went full time to school I asked over and over for him to start to look for work. When I fell pregnant he promised that he would definitely get a job.....4 months down the line and he has only applied for 1 job. He is lazy. he spends all day watching daytime tv while I work hard to try and support us. He washes up every day and tidies the lounge about once a week, but that is the sum of his contributions despite my asking him time and time again to help me out. I pay nearly £250 a month on his booze and fags and I have had enough. The resentment has been growing and growing as have his excuses and now when i look at him I feel nothing but anger.
The final straw came the other day when i had my hair cut really short (I have a habit of doing this when i dont feel in control of my life). when i got home he took one look st me, rolled his eyes and turned his back on me. Not a major thing but enough for me to decide that I can not carry on living with this man and actually have any happiness.
I am young (33) and want to make the most of mylife. I want to have fun, laugh and fill my time positive things. I know I have made the right decision and I know my future will be so much brighter as a result. Unlike my husband I am surround by a very loving family and alot of wonderful friends (hubby is a hermit who has no friends and doesnt like going out). Despite this I am absolutely petrified of bringing up 2 children alone and I am absolutely riddled with guilt about taking the children away from their daddy. he is a terrible husband but he is a wonderful, loving father.
Please forgive the essay.....I could write a full book at the moment.....I guess I just want/need to get it all out!!!