I am just so angry

[Widger]

Sorry for my rant. I've been feeling really good recently - even after 3 mc and wasn't thinking about it all. Just getting on with life and I felt quite positive about starting again - that is until this weekend.

I went to wedding where yet another friend told me about her being pregnant... I would have been 20 weeks at the wedding. Everywhere I looked there were pregnant women everywhere and it JUST ISN'T FAIR!!!!

I know I sound awful saying this but I just couldn't bring myself to speak to her after I found out the news (she doesn't know about any of my mcs). Don't get me wrong I don't wish any bad news for her... we all know how awful it is... but why her and not me?? She got pregnant straight away after one month... grrrrrr.

Now it has made me feel anxious again about trying. What if it happens again?

Sorry, I just needed to get it out. I woke up in such a foul mood today. Life is so unfair sometimes. R

 

[T'elle]

i had this recently hun at my brothers wedding, i was his photographer too i put a brave face on all day..by 10 pm i locked myself in the loo's breaking my heart crying until 30 mins later mum came and found me, i just couldn't hold it in any longer xxx hope you feel some comfort soon hun, be strong xxx

 

[mazza2003]

I had my first pang of jealously hearing that wayne rooney and colleen are 12 weeks, I would be that too and I really dont fancy reading about the other 28 weeks complete with pictures!
Green eyed monster!

 

[T'elle]

I had my first pang of jealously hearing that wayne rooney and colleen are 12 weeks, I would be that too and I really dont fancy reading about the other 28 weeks complete with pictures!
Green eyed monster!

yeah hun me too this morning on the radio xx

 

[rachjim98]

So sorry sweetie, but sometimes it good to get a rant out.. I am still having one, just seems like when it rains it pours on my end. I am tired of it!! So sorry for your loss and hope it helps to get it out.. xoxo

 

[Widger]

Everyone is getting pregnant at the moment it seems.... arrrggghhh. Ha ha, actually laughing at myself getting so irrate now. Thanks for making me feel better girls xx

 

[todteach]

Sending you big hun. We're all right there with you.

 

[boxerdog]

aww sweet sending you .

I'm so sorry for your losses, your time will come i'm sure of it. xx

 

[Widger]

Thanks for your messages. Suppose it is really starting to hit me now xx

 

[plumplump]

So sorry to hear about your loss. I feel like this alot - I am happy for the people I know that are preg and have just had babies and wish them all the happiness in the world but everytime I see/hear of someone pregnant I get so jealous and sad. I think it is only natural though and try not to worry about it too much and I would tell you to do the same thing. It stings that I can vouch for but it will be us one day and there will be another girl in the same boat as we are on now.
Good luck for future babiness and to you
x

 

[tanylou3]

im so glad to have found this group to realise im not a total freak who's head isnt on straight!!

having had to have a MTOP last april due my baby having a severe neural tube defect and been trying ever since... im so angry inside it hurts!!

Im a healthy, active and grounded 25 year old so why isnt it my turn??

especially when everyone around is getting pregnant... im all for choice in eating / drinking and doing what you like within reason when your pregnant but when an old school friend with a bad cocaine habit gets pregnant and continues her use throughout and has a healthy baby... or an severly overweight sister in law has twins after saying she was considering being sterilised... just why??

 

[jen35]

Widger, I feel your pain hon, my mates just had her lovely little girl and I can't bring myself to go and see her cos I know I'll be a mess. Then yesterday I get an invitation to someone elses christening in 3 weeks! Its not fair and it IS hard to be happy for all these people, it doesn't make us horrible people its just flippin circumstance.

That said, Mazza I'm with you on colleen rooney, don't want to know any more!!

 

[redball]

I totally sympathize with you. It sucks trying to be happy for other people when you're feeling crappy on the inside wondering why you're the one who had to be a part of a statistic and why wasn't it the other person? A relative is expecting around the same time I would have been and I'm doing all I can to avoid her. And I'm pissed off that I've had more than one miscarriage. There should be a law against that!
And I hear what you're saying tanylou, why do people who don't appreciate what they have get pregnant so easily? And a drug user giving birth to a baby is just disgusting! Life can be so unfair sometimes.
I hope everyone here gets knocked up real soon so you can all show off your baby bumps. Good luck to everyone!