I am so utterly pathetic...and dejected

[CurlySue]

...because for the third month in a row I got cystitis at EXACTLY the right time in the month (i.e. ovulation time) and since I could not BD I had OH ijzz in a cup and I used a syringe to inject myself with it.

Don't know if it's pathetic, desperate or what, but my body is just so against me right now that I didn't know what else to do.

 

[rachelle1975]

Not pathetic hun - needs must! And if he is happy and you are happy then go for it! Life is to short to waste time so go! go! go! i say - besides.... not much different from me going for IVF - at least you got to turkey baste yourself

 

[CareBear]

Sorry to hear this but as Rachelle said needs must, got my fingers crossed for you

 

[maz]

Needs must hun

 

[HAYS]

Aw chick, your not pathetic you cant help it!!

Defo needs must hun!!xx

 

[Farie]

Oh chick it's not pathetic
Your bodies certainly not helping you is it

as the other ladies have said ... sometimes needs must

 

[CurlySue]

Thanks all. I'm just feeling very depressed at the minute because it's happened every month for three months. The first two months I don't even think I ovulated because I never had a temp shift but I got cystitis around mid-cycle. And now this month, I was doing so well with the whole BDing thing (managed it Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday morning and then BANG, there is the cystitis again!) and then it happened AGAIN. I cannot count how many months have been ruined by this problem.

I get this stupid infection ALL the time, at least once a month, and it just so happens to be correlating with when I expect to be ovulating, if at all. I have felt no pain this month like I do when I ovulate and my tests have been positive for days, now, so I have no clue whether I ovulated or not but I could not possibly BD. I just did now as a last gasp for the month and I am in such unspeakable pain that I am sorry I did it.

I just feel a little bit embarrassed that I have to resort to what I did last night...

 

[JASMAK]

Sometimes DH and I use the Instead Cup just because we are both too tired to do the shi-bang. That's how I conceived my son.

 

[Koobie1982]

Get well soon

As long as it does the trick, I dont think it matters how it gets there!

 

[CurlySue]

Trouble is, it went everywhere anyway so I don't think it even worked. So I embarrassed myself for nothing.

OH is convinced this is "our" month, says he has a "feeling" and all this does is make me feel shite because I don't have that feeling and never have had that feeling, and he's so positive and I'm just...not.

It's never our month. It hasn't been "our month" in close to three years of unprotected sex. Why would it miraculously be now?

 

[hayz1981]

I'm sure lots will have found their way even if it seemed to go everywhere. Don't be embarrassed chick - if it gives you an extra chance at a :BFP: then its a great idea.

It only has to be your month once hun, just once, and it will be, just hang in there.

xxx

 

[Nicnac]

from a fellow sufferer. Don't be embarrassed though, needs must and all that.

With the dreaded C have you spoken to your Docs about it. I self prescribed for months and it kept coming back and back and back, till I could take it no more. The Docs referred me to a specialist and I had a cystoscopy (sorry for spelling) and they give your tubes a little bit of a stretch. This means that you evacuate you baldder completely and your less likely to store infections. The gave me a stronger anti-b (which was TTC/PG friendly) too and I've got to say fingers crossed I only get a re-occurance every few months or so. Worst thing is for me it's usually bought on my too much in my quest of LTTC. So now I just live on cranberry juice twice a day!

Hope it clears up soon and that your OH has some mystic meg going on and he's right about a for you.

Big

 

[CurlySue]

I have been tested for my recurrent problem. Since one year I was up to two infections per month I went to see a urologist. Had an IVP to check my kidneys and some more testing and it showed a slight problem with the way one of my kidneys is made. Retrograde something or other. When I was a kid I had problems too. Its when you go for a wee and the wee goes back up. Reflux I think it's called. It scars the kidneys and leaves you more prone to infection.

The only thing that works for me is taking Keflex or Cefalexin (same thing, just different names) which is TTC friendly. I was on a low dose permanent antibiotic but its not good for TTC so I came off that.

Its wholly annnoying. Can't drink cranberry either as it makes me want to throw up. Ugh.

Hugs.