I deleted his number!

[xAmiixLouisex]

Never been so relieved in my life!

I'm often strong about the whole situation and 80% of the time I think Screw him, We don't need him, Blah blah. But, if I'm honest I do have my down days where I'm just so desperate for him to care about our son and then I'll text and hope for a text back which NEVER comes. The other day, I had one of these days. I decided to text a final ultimatum. This was it..

"After this text I'm going to delete your number and I want you to delete mine. I've had enough of hearing bullshit stories off people and letting you get to me. It's not fair! And if you want to deny your son then that's fine, but don't EVER try to turn up in the future and be a part of his life because he deserves better. You've have long enough now to grow up and come to terms with the situation. This is the last chance. If I don't get a reply, I'm going to accept that you've made your decision and you're sticking by it."

Of course, No reply. I really thought it would be different this time. I think part of me was clinging onto the hope that deep down he does want to be there and he will end up getting involved. I thought when reading the seriousness of the text I'd at least get a little text, even if it was to say he wants to wait until LO is here then talk. But now, that's it. He's had 7 months to step up and face responsibility and can honestly admit to myself now that this probably wont change.

I deleted his number today, and I feel SO much better. I think the worst part was just not knowing. Even if he ever does call or text, I feel better knowing that when that number comes up on my screen my heart wont drop because I wont know it's him. When he got in touch months ago, just a few crappy text messages.. Every time his name came up I was ridden with fear and nervousness because I was just so scared of him being nasty and rejecting my son. He didn't, he just tried a casual convo and didn't even mention our son. Jerk.

But yeah.. Just wanted to post about how free I feel! Finally, all my doubts and wondering.. GONE. No more wondering about the birth certificate, no more not knowing my sons last name. I can finally look forward to just me and my son. It's a little scary.. If I'm honest, my new fear is actually that I'll be alone forever. But I'm so glad this weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can fully prepare for life as a single mommy.

 

[george83]

congratulations you are one strong woman! i hope you manage to get some relief from him, i used to spend hours praying my husband would text and it's a horrible feeling.

your baby definitely sounds like it's better off just the two of you xxxxx

 

[dustbunny]

That is such an amazingly strong thing to do, major hugs

Although you did 'give in' and contact him you did so for the right reasons. If sending that was not enough to wake him up then I really do not know. I really do not get men at all, what they don't understand is that they think they have all the power but in reality all they are do is creating a race of super strong women. From your previous posts I know how many chances you have given him and think it is humbling you tried one last time.

From a personal point of view I really want to do the same thing. I know all too well the anticipation of the sound of a text and checking through baited breath to see the name... although I have only ever got 2 texts from him in 9 months [as opposed to the fair few I got when he was horny prior to break up!!]. I hope you do not mind but I am going to copy you in your strength and delete my FOB number!

Again, major hugs

 

[Laura2919]

Well done. Although don't be tempted to try and find it. You need to fight the urge to text him and contact him. You've done all you can xx

 

[angelpkj]

haha thats what i did
i couldnt handle knowing he had my number and could get in touch but was choosing not too etc or was ignoring me
changing my number and making the shoe on the other foot was a great choice IMO i felt so much stronger

 

[Ryders_Mommie]

I actually just did the same thing with my FOB. He is so careless when he does get him, (note the only reason he ever gets him is to make his self look good in front of his family), he dosen't ever watch anything he ever does, he just dosen't care. My son almost choaked to death because of his careless father two times in one week. It is kind of getting a bit rediclious. Back to the point though. Us moms need to put or foot down top the FOB, let them know that this isn't going to be a flop in and out thing. Babies must have stability.

 

[teal]

Well done you xx

 

[kirst1805]

Good for you hun!

XX