I don't know how to do this

[Mum2bewaiting]

I know I have not posted in here much but I think I need some help...

I had a MMC in October and fell again in the next proper cycle... not expecting it to happen so soon but obviously delighted. All through this pregnancy I have been relly mixed in emotions, although I have calmed down a lot recently, largely due to changing my midwife. I felt as though my last MW had a 'get over it' attitude and communication was a huge problem. I ended up being picked up and put into the hospital system when my 'new MW saw me at 12 weeks for my dating scan... I was a wreck, and have calmed down in being allowed to feel scared... until now...
She is of sick, originaly planned length, but things didn't go well so she could be off another few weeks, Archies EDD was 29th April, so would have been due anytime now, I hit viability on the 29th also and I am going to end up with my 25 week appt landing about then (my appts have been as I needed them until recently), I don't know how to deal with the next few weeks...
My GP is also off this week and I guess I feel alone again and don't know where to go... I have been on the phone to the day unit trying to convince them that I feel ok and am coping well (trying to find out what I do from here)... then sobbed for 15 minutes

Sorry for off loading like this I guess the hormones have hit,

 

[Tulip]

Hi sweetie, what a difficult few weeks this is for you. I'm so sorry I can't offer any practical advice, but you're doing so well! I hope the hospital can provide you with the support that you need, and don't forget that we're always here to listen. xxx

 

[marie-louise]

aww sweetie I am so so sorry you are feeling like this! Everyone in this part of the forum understands what you are going through. I myself wish that I had the same kind of naive and confident pregnancy that others who haven't suffered a loss have had. You must take heart in the fact that you have made it this far and the likelihood of something going wrong at this stage is minimal. Yes, we have read the stories but when you look at how many healthy babies are born we can see that the probability of something awful happening in the last half of pregnancy is so low!

Coming near the due date of your angel is also the most emotional time! I was 25 weeks too at that stage in January and it was so upsetting, just take heart that there is a new life inside of you and your angel is watching you all from heaven, (if you believe). As for the medical side of things, if you are ever worried about anything at all and you have no access or poor support from MW, you can also call labour ward and they should be able to reassure you.

Best wishes hun and I hope you feel better soon xxx