I dont want to do anything.

[Baileeboo77]

Wwnt off of bc in October 2011 and was blessed with a bfp first cycle! Sadly it ended in a mc. Im tired of this bullshit. I hate seeing pregnant people. I dont know wtf to do. Soft cups soy ovulation test bbt laying on my head for a hour nothing is working. Ive become a fat ass and gained 40 lbs through this shit too. Sorry for my foul mouth but im jusy so sad. Im 20 my ob wont even run test on me, he said its pointless and im too young to have a child. Bullshit I have money I am married I want to be a mom. How dare him tell me that. Im stuck with no place to go. The only thing I know is if no bfp by July 2014 we will do our first round of IUI. I hate this shit im sad im crying typing this. I just want one baby idc boy or girl. What is wrong with me im 20 why cant I get pg. We are getting a sa on dh May 8th. I bet it will be horrible, he has had epididtmytis twice and testicular torsion. I need to lose weight but how when im so sad. I just want to be a mom, why is it so hard for it to happen. I dont feel like a women. My mom wants a grandchild so bad and my dad but I cant help. I feel worthless as far as my reproductive system goes !!! I dont even know if what om typing makes since. Im venting I suppose. But I guess its time for me to come to the ltttc section ?

 

[Kwaggy]

Im sorry you are upset hun... I would switch doctors, its not his decision to tell you if you're old enough to have a baby!

 

[Baileeboo77]

He stupid, he said if you were my sister or daughter I would slap you I was like really?

 

[Kwaggy]

WOW. What a Jerk. Ive wanted a baby since I was 18, as long as you're ready don't let anyone discourage you.

 

[Baileeboo77]

I haven't let anyone so far, I try to stay positive but its so hard!! So many bfns

 

[Kwaggy]

Have you tried any over the counter meds or vitamins? Are you charting or using OPKs?

 

[Baileeboo77]

Both and I am on my 3rd month of soy.

 

[Kwaggy]

Good Luck, soy never worked for me I hope it does the trick for you. Almost 3 years of TTC and Ive never confirmed ovulation. I had a pelvic ultrasound on Monday, and I was relived to find out that I do actually have ovaries. I wasnt too sure lol. My RE pointed out all of these little specs and told me they we Follies that are not mature yet, so they are in there, now I just have to figure out how to make them grow!

 

[Baileeboo77]

Ugh that sounds stressful. Im so sorry. Have you considered ivf?

 

[Fizzyfefe]

Oh hun, I would change doctors immediately. No one has the right to tell you that, especially a doctor. I'm so sorry for your loss and that you're still going through the pain of not having a baby yet.

 

[Kwaggy]

Good Luck, soy never worked for me I hope it does the trick for you. Almost 3 years of TTC and Ive never confirmed ovulation. I had a pelvic ultrasound on Monday, and I was relived to find out that I do actually have ovaries. I wasnt too sure lol. My RE pointed out all of these little specs and told me they we Follies that are not mature yet, so they are in there, now I just have to figure out how to make them grow!

I just recently started seeing an RE, right now Im trying Femara and if that doesnt work the next step is injectables. Im trying to avoid IVF Because its so costly. So Im hoping the Femara works. A BFP would be great but even just ovulating would be a success!!!

 

[Baileeboo77]

Good Luck, soy never worked for me I hope it does the trick for you. Almost 3 years of TTC and Ive never confirmed ovulation. I had a pelvic ultrasound on Monday, and I was relived to find out that I do actually have ovaries. I wasnt too sure lol. My RE pointed out all of these little specs and told me they we Follies that are not mature yet, so they are in there, now I just have to figure out how to make them grow!

I just recently started seeing an RE, right now Im trying Femara and if that doesnt work the next step is injectables. Im trying to avoid IVF Because its so costly. So Im hoping the Femara works. A BFP would be great but even just ovulating would be a success!!!

Yeah the longest cycle I have had was 83 days, and I never did ovulate. Hopefully the femera helps! What dose of clomid have you tried?

 

[Baileeboo77]

Oh hun, I would change doctors immediately. No one has the right to tell you that, especially a doctor. I'm so sorry for your loss and that you're still going through the pain of not having a baby yet.

Thanks , yeah after he said that I just kinda thought to myself maybe I should find a new doc lol.

 

[heres_hoping]

Yeah the longest cycle I have had was 83 days, and I never did ovulate. Hopefully the femera helps! What dose of clomid have you tried?

This sounds suspiciously like PCOS to me.....are your cycles very irregular? If it is, it does make it harder to conceive, but not impossible. The hardest part for me was getting a diagnosis, and do, nfortunately due to your age, lots of doctors may not take you seriously. I would suggest see a different doctor, and initially, don't mention TTC, as as soon as you say that they will say go away and keep trying. Instead, tell them you are concerned about your periods becuase your cycle can be very long, and they may be more likely to investigate for you.

Meanwhile....bit of tough love here......you can help yourself by losing a bit of weight, that is likey to help your cycle. It is hard if you do have PCOS, but it isn't impossible......you need to try and change your mindset here, thnk what can I do to help myself, rather than "I'm so depressed I don't want to do anything" I have been there too, and it is a vicious cycle, trust me.

 

[Kwaggy]

I did 2 rounds at 50mg, 2 rounds at 100mg 2 at 150 and the last rounds I tried were 250mg...and didnt respond at all. My OB then told me I am clomid resistant and possibly have PCOS. I was referred to a RE and found out I dont have PCOS but over active adreal glads. I was happy to finally have reason for my irregular cycles.

 

[Baileeboo77]

Yeah the longest cycle I have had was 83 days, and I never did ovulate. Hopefully the femera helps! What dose of clomid have you tried?

This sounds suspiciously like PCOS to me.....are your cycles very irregular? If it is, it does make it harder to conceive, but not impossible. The hardest part for me was getting a diagnosis, and do, nfortunately due to your age, lots of doctors may not take you seriously. I would suggest see a different doctor, and initially, don't mention TTC, as as soon as you say that they will say go away and keep trying. Instead, tell them you are concerned about your periods becuase your cycle can be very long, and they may be more likely to investigate for you.

Meanwhile....bit of tough love here......you can help yourself by losing a bit of weight, that is likey to help your cycle. It is hard if you do have PCOS, but it isn't impossible......you need to try and change your mindset here, thnk what can I do to help myself, rather than "I'm so depressed I don't want to do anything" I have been there too, and it is a vicious cycle, trust me.

I know I need to, I have gained 40 lbs since ttc. I know that has to be some of the reason. I sont know about the pcos, how do they check that I have had scans on my ovaries before because of pain after sex and they said I had a a low case of endo, but I thought I needed laproscopy to find that out :shrugs:

 

[Baileeboo77]

I did 2 rounds at 50mg, 2 rounds at 100mg 2 at 150 and the last rounds I tried were 250mg...and didnt respond at all. My OB then told me I am clomid resistant and possibly have PCOS. I was referred to a RE and found out I dont have PCOS but over active adreal glads. I was happy to finally have reason for my irregular cycles.

Those arerhigh doeses , but the highest I have hearf of is 300 who knows maybe that would do the trick! ?!?!??!!?

 

[Myshelsong]

Hey Bailee
Welcome to the LTTTC thread, I feel you that the vent thread is going to be your friend I have used it on a few occasions and reading through other peoples thoughts and vents sometimes is very therapeutic.

I agree with looking at getting a new doctor and going in without TTC issues but with concerns about your menstral cycle in itself.

I just want to wish you all the luck in the world, and hope this happens for you soon.
Big Hugs!

 

[Baileeboo77]

Thanks my shel, what happened I thought you were going to get the procedure done tomorrow? It got pushed back?

 

[Myshelsong]

Yup! Not really happy about it, I finally got to a good point in excepting that this baby was not happening without assistance and I was calm and ready then BAM right in the kisser!
Oh well, just a couple more months of trying to go!