I feel like a moron :(

[21yrsurvivor]

I started bleeding later in the day that my period was due, but it didn't act like my typical cycle. The bleeding picked up and I still wanted to know. I live at home with my Dad, Mom and brother...yes I know I'm 31 years old and live at home with my parents and brother...long story, in short I'm a brain tumor survivor.

Moving on...

I started having symptoms early, and I was so excited because we decided to TTC. It was out first trying trying this month. I told him that I was feeling different and and having some weird symptoms (power of suggestion I guess) and when I told him he was so happy at the possibility of me being pregnant. The past few days I have been having light pink bleeding and it was starting to ware on me that I was keeping it so hush from everyone, except my boyfriend. I was getting stressed over thinking I may be pregnant but also thinking and getting depressed that the chances are that I'm not. I told my mom last night, she was very supportive and surprised I told her.

Needless to say I feel like a moron for telling my boyfriend and mom when I was saying that I was having symptoms. Now I feel like they aren't going to look at me seriously when I start having symptoms again. Has anyone ever felt like this? I'm seriously wanting to break down and cry right now.

 

[AngelofTroy]

Please don't feel silly, when I was TTC this baby I symptom spotted every single month! I lost count of the amount of times I was "sure" that this or that symptom meant I was pregnant.. And this was my second child!! In fact even before I had my first, who wasn't planned and we used contraception, I remember many months where I confided in someone that I thought I was pregnant, only for my period to arrive just after or even questioning whether my period was "normal" or if I was pregnant..

Nobody will think you were silly or not believe you next time, it's just part and parcel of being a woman, we are complicated!

 

[21yrsurvivor]

Please don't feel silly, when I was TTC this baby I symptom spotted every single month! I lost count of the amount of times I was "sure" that this or that symptom meant I was pregnant.. And this was my second child!! In fact even before I had my first, who wasn't planned and we used contraception, I remember many months where I confided in someone that I thought I was pregnant, only for my period to arrive just after or even questioning whether my period was "normal" or if I was pregnant..

Nobody will think you were silly or not believe you next time, it's just part and parcel of being a woman, we are complicated!

Thank you for the encouragement girl! I think we all go in with high hopes that this month is the month whether my body likes it or not kind of attitude. My periods come on time, sometimes 2 days earlier or 2 later. Most of time though its clockwork, and it ALWAYS starts out light for the first 4-5 days and then I have 5 days of really heavy flow and clots. one thing that sucks is that the 2 apps that I have used have my fertile window starting the last two days of my cycle...yuck! So as soon as AF is over I am ready to go LOL.

I have to agree, I think all women are complicated to some extent, especially if they conceive right away...that's playing with fire LOL.