I feel like such a stupid teenager.

[jozylynn896]

Please excuse my cursing as I'm very upset.
I've been with my boyfriend since 7.19.11
I always thought we were so amaxing because honestly I am so i n love with him.
But I fucking hate him. I hate him to fucking death.
I just want him to fucking disapear.
Just gp away completly.
I told him I'm going to the hospital and he's still just being a jerk to me. He said "come tomy house".
I know this sounds stupid but I refuse to see his family. He's keeping me and my son a secret from them so that they don't find out he's gonna be a fatherr.
I hate it. I fucking hate it. He wants me to just throw on a big sweater and hide my aches and pains but I refuse to do that.
I'm o proud of my son and I want to show of to the world my tummy and he wants me to hide it.
Which to me is not okay. AT ALL. But he just doesn't get it. So I told him how I felt in a long mean text and he said "your the annoying BITCH".
Which just fucking broke my heart. And now he's coming to my house.
He told me "I don't fucking want this with you. We're just fucking kids and unlike you I have my whole life ahead of me." He constantly puts me down. But when he's with me he says. "Baby there's nobody in the world I would prefer to be having my baby, my love." I've never been naive before. I grew up fast and I've bnever been stupid. But I just feel so naive and dumb right now and I hate him.
I tell him "I don't need you to raise a child" and he laughs in my face saying that without him I'm nothing. I try and try and try to fix this relationship but he just won't help me.
People just say "sit down and talk calmy to him". I do every day. We sit down and I talk to him.
I feel like the only thing left to do is stop caring for him like he has with me.
"You don't know what you got until its gone." Type thing.
But I know once I stop caring. ... I'm actually gonna stop caring. He's finally gonna see how good I was to him and by then it'll be too late because I would have stopped giving a fuck about him. He will have no one. Not his family, his girl or his son.
And then he'll be miserable and sad all the time like he makes me.
The thought of hurting him makes me wanna puke. But that's what I think I'm gonna do.. pretend not to care til I actually don't. Treat him how he treeats me.

 

[SarahMUMMY]

do not hide your baby!
This was the worse thing i did i hid my bump for 28weeks! untill he told his whole family because they were ashamed! Well i wasnt and i should have stood my ground for what i believed in because now looking back it made me slightly disconnect with my son, also it made my pregnancy pretty damn awful!
I could go through the 4 day labour 40weeks of morning sickness constantly feeling like shit a billion times! But i couldnt go through hiding a baby and feeling disconnected again.. no way..
Stand your ground.. you go tell his family your pregnant!

from experience i hope things get better

 

[jozylynn896]

Thank you so much I just can't sit there and hide my baby!
I'm so happy for mylittle boy. I know I will never be ashamed of him. I just hate how he is ashamed. :""(
But I love my baby more than anybody in the whole world!

 

[x__amour]

Big hugs chick.

 

[ClairAye]

Sorry but what an asshole!
Don't hide away! Be proud! I hope he gets a big kick up the bum very soon!

 

[o.o]

Your OH sounds like an a-hole. You and your baby don't deserve to be treated like that.

 

[bsd]

I'm so sorry!
I think you should definitely leave him he sounds like an a hole! You should be proud of your baby and so should he! He should never talk to you that way!

 

[lil lovey]

really sorry that you have to deal with this. Its good that you aint hiding the precious gift you carrying. Him wanting to hide the pregnancy won't get him anywhere. At the end of the day you'll still be pregnant. He shouldn't be ashamedhe DTD with you and wasn't shamed by it so he shouldn't wen it comes to his son

 

[jozylynn896]

Thanks ladies! I know bits super hard to be over the top excited to be a teen dad. I know he's not gonna jump up and down and tell the whole world because he has to think of the reality. But I also think he should be proud.
You're. Right! He had no problem with laying with me. And making love to me so many times. But he's gonna be ashamed of this?
I love him but I think every mother loves their child more than any man. Even if that man is the father.
I just get upset because I know he wouldn't act this wa towards me had I had an abortion. But I fucking didn't. I kept my baby.
I just hope he sees that he has to straighten up or get out.
Thanks guys. :')

 

[lil lovey]

He'll straighten up eventually. My FOB was also like this. He was so embarassed of me and the baby. He became so rude towards me so I left him. Idk what happened but his starting to change aftEr so long. To bad back then he didn't realize that his breaking up our relationship. I still do love him but we won't be a couple no more.

 

[jozylynn896]

I know he will straighten up. I know he will come around.
But I just hope he does it before I stop caring for him tho.

 

[lil lovey]

I hope so too. Its sad when love is lost just cause of a baby

 

[xx~Lor~xx]

Im sorry but it sounds like all he's doing is messing with your head. As hard as it is I think you need to force him to choose between you and your son, or not having you. He needs to tell his family and stand up on his own two feet or do one if he's going to act like a child. You absolutely do not need him to be able to raise your child.

 

[chasingbfp]

Hope he comes around!

 

[little_lissy]

Personally I would hope his family would be more ashamed that he is forcing you to hide your pregnancy. They won't like it as obviously no parent wants their teenager to become a parent themselves but I would be more annoyed and upset if my daughter or son thought/did keep their child a secret from me. He is a coward. You don't need him in your life. I would make sure you tell his parents though because they do deserve to know.

 

[Abeera]

Aw! I'm so sorry to hear your going through this. Well he's being a jerk and nothing more by saying that he has a life ahead of him. He is involved in this just as much as you are.

Hope everything gets better.

 

[3xpire]

I going through a similar situation, and its important to make it clear to him that you're proud and that he's lucky that you are bringing this little gift into this world. My ex ignored me for three weeks and called it all drama and I finally realized that no man who is going to show their girlfriends/fiances/wives any respect during such a big stage in your life, they are not worth it. Whether you decide to do this with or without him, just remember that you're strong enough no matter what.

I finally built up that confidence, and in my opinion, a man cannot just choose when he wants to become a father later. It's unfair to you and the child. And there's a difference between being an ass and being scared. He is just an ass.

Don't feel ashamed to feel the way you do towards him. The most I can say is to just stay away from him, keep from any contact, and just work on doing whats best for the baby. Any man who is ashamed and embarassed of his own child, doesn't deserve to be a father in the first place.

I wish you the best.

 

[jozylynn896]

Thank you guys for the advice.
It just hurts because his family will most likely disown him and deny their grandchild.

 

[Charlie91]

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this, particularly when you're pregnant.

IMO, his parents may be shocked and upset about the fact that you're pregnant at first but at the end of the day, it's their grandchild that you're carrying and you have no reason to have to hide that fact, you're proud of your son and when they see that, I'm sure they'll be a bit more understanding. Your OH just needs to give them the chance to get their heads around the idea that they're going to be grandparents.

At the end of the day, people manage with LOs. You should give his parents the chance to decide whether they want to be a part of their grandsons life... You may be pleasantly surprised at their reaction.

I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, you're son is a very lucky boy

 

[jozylynn896]

Thank you so much!
I just know the first thing they'll do is ask for a DNA and try convincing him to leave me. And I will literally punch his mom in the face!