MissBabyFace
Angel baby 04/12/2010
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I know this isnt the place to just vent but I need to
Nearlly 6 months ago I miscarried at around 11weeks. It was the worst thing I have ever experienced and it was a horrible miscarriage too. I started bleeding on the 3rd of December only a bit of blood though but lots of clots so we hurried down to the hospital where they said that if I was miscarrying nothing can be done anyway and because it was a Friday there were MORE important issues going on down A&E.
I headed home in a bit of a daze, my bleeding started to lessen a little and felt a little confident, I just thought I'd be one of those women who bleed in early pregnancy but EVERYTHING is fine in the end. It wasnt, I woke on the 4th to extreme bleeding and extreme cramps around 2pm in the afternoon I passed my baby, yes my baby I wiped and it was just there in an unbroken bubble my child with such a huge heart and I mean it was huge it was the most horrible thing I've ever seen and will ever see. Naturally I broke down in tears, I tried to get in contact with my Dr, my midwife, the hospital but no one... I was in so much pain at times I couldnt even stand because of the pains shooting up from my thighs right up into the top of stomach and inside me.
Finally I got through to them Sunday after 2 days into my miscarriage to all I got was "sorry to hear that" I was upset, depressed and hell yeah I was fucking angry too. This was my first pregnancy and my first loss and their to busy to answer the phone to a women whos miscarrying her child? I finally got seen on Tuesday afternoon and had a scan to confirm that my body had "flushed" my baby out and my uterus was behaving now like it was on a period.
My point is I was depressed as hell then and I still am now it's been half of a year my due date is approaching 20th of July and my cousin is due that date too which makes it ten times worse because I'm going to have to see the baby in her arms knowing I should have my baby in my arms too. I'm sorry about venting here and writeing big graphical details about my miscarriage but I just need to talk to someone, my OH doesnt understand what it's like to bond with a child inside you and you do bond although I only did for around 11 weeks. Although my mum had many miscarriages she doesnt understand she's made herself into a hard rock and doesnt remember what it feels like to be newly pregnant and then have a miscarriage on your first pregnancy and my friends are still in college or chasing guys or doing drugs etc I just don't know what to do anymore
Nearlly 6 months ago I miscarried at around 11weeks. It was the worst thing I have ever experienced and it was a horrible miscarriage too. I started bleeding on the 3rd of December only a bit of blood though but lots of clots so we hurried down to the hospital where they said that if I was miscarrying nothing can be done anyway and because it was a Friday there were MORE important issues going on down A&E.
I headed home in a bit of a daze, my bleeding started to lessen a little and felt a little confident, I just thought I'd be one of those women who bleed in early pregnancy but EVERYTHING is fine in the end. It wasnt, I woke on the 4th to extreme bleeding and extreme cramps around 2pm in the afternoon I passed my baby, yes my baby I wiped and it was just there in an unbroken bubble my child with such a huge heart and I mean it was huge it was the most horrible thing I've ever seen and will ever see. Naturally I broke down in tears, I tried to get in contact with my Dr, my midwife, the hospital but no one... I was in so much pain at times I couldnt even stand because of the pains shooting up from my thighs right up into the top of stomach and inside me.
Finally I got through to them Sunday after 2 days into my miscarriage to all I got was "sorry to hear that" I was upset, depressed and hell yeah I was fucking angry too. This was my first pregnancy and my first loss and their to busy to answer the phone to a women whos miscarrying her child? I finally got seen on Tuesday afternoon and had a scan to confirm that my body had "flushed" my baby out and my uterus was behaving now like it was on a period.
My point is I was depressed as hell then and I still am now it's been half of a year my due date is approaching 20th of July and my cousin is due that date too which makes it ten times worse because I'm going to have to see the baby in her arms knowing I should have my baby in my arms too. I'm sorry about venting here and writeing big graphical details about my miscarriage but I just need to talk to someone, my OH doesnt understand what it's like to bond with a child inside you and you do bond although I only did for around 11 weeks. Although my mum had many miscarriages she doesnt understand she's made herself into a hard rock and doesnt remember what it feels like to be newly pregnant and then have a miscarriage on your first pregnancy and my friends are still in college or chasing guys or doing drugs etc I just don't know what to do anymore