I feel so guilty (Hormones Maybe?)

[Sentiment]

I just saw what happened with you know..

and I've got it confirmed, and he/she is healthy, he/she moves ALOT.

and Im hitting every milestone.

But, I feel like Im lying to myself or making it up or imagining it, I feel really guilty. I've already told a close friend, a friend who is expecting, and a friend of the FOB (who probz still think im lying, who cares) and I feel so bad because I feel like I'm making this all up because its so, surreal.

I just feel so bad.

I'm so afraid to tell the FOB because its one of the biggest steps to make it all real. But I feel like such a huge fake, when everything proves im not.

I guess Im in denial, or something. Has anyone experienced this?

And how can I tell him, I let him believe I was lying for almost 12 weeks, how do I tell him I wasnt?

 

[Leah_xx]

Just tell him straight forward why you havent been telling him the truth.
you gotta be honest hun even though its gonna be hard

 

[debsxhim]

Your already fifteen weeks. Its going to go by so fast, your belly will start to grow, and it will become flat out obvious sooner rather then later. When it comes to that point EVERYONE will know, and be confused why you didn't just tell them. Its tough but you need to tell him flat out before it becomes way too overdue.

 

[Croc-O-Dile]

I felt the SAME way my entire pregnancy! In the beginning I felt like it was all fake and then when I started to show I STILL felt like I was lying to everyone! How silly is that? What, did I think everyone thought I was just shoplifting a basket ball or something?

 

[AP]

Have you been to any medical professional to get this pregnancy confirmed, Sentiment?

 

[Sentiment]

yeah

 

[amandad192]

Have you had a scan yet? or heard baby's heartbeat? Maybe that's what you need.
For me it all becae real at my scan. The doctor done the pregnancy test and I never saw it. Every one knew I was pregnant and believed it (it took MIL a few days to believe it because she thought we were joking) Then I saw my baby and it hit me that I was going to be a mummy.
With FOB, I'd wait til you start showing, or take him to a scan and let him see the proof. He might not believe you if you tell him. When he finally figures out for himself that you weren't lying, just tell him you told him you were pregnant and if he refused to believe you it was his choice.

 

[Sentiment]

I think thats it, I've got a scan soon, maybe that'll make it feel more real.

Im driving myself crazy, I feel movements, but I like..make up an excuse like..im imagining it or something.

god, maybe there's something wrong with me. I think im letting my ex's insults go to my head

 

[abbSTAR]

Don't worry your not the only one, I felt the same for ages like it wasn't happening and when I told FOB that I was pregnant I felt like I was lying and everything was so untrue. Even when I started growing I thought to myself no. It's not a baby I'm just getting fat... And it took me sooo long to accept it was real, not even the movements convincied me... But in the end I though this is going to far I need to tell my mum... And I did when I was already 25 weeks pregnant, It still didn't seem real to me at the scan. It took AGES to sink in.. But now with my very big belly and him sticking his feet in my ribs, constantly poking my cervix and having all his gorgeous little stuff it's finally feeling real. But seriously I think I'll give birth and be like HOLY SH*T this is real xx

 

[Sentiment]

I am glad there are some girls who went through this, I really am driving myself crazy