i hate the wait for af!! :(

[sugarpi24]

Figured id be use to it by now...but everytime I'm like am I...nope I'm not...am I...nope...grr! Its like crazy mix of emotions!! happy sad mad... ive been testing like crazy...I have cramping which could mean af is coming and my appetite has increase and that could be cuz I'm bored...period coming or pregnant. Grr! Hate it hate it hate it! Lol sorry had to vent some

 

[Miss_Awesome]

Figured id be use to it by now...but everytime I'm like am I...nope I'm not...am I...nope...grr! Its like crazy mix of emotions!! happy sad mad... ive been testing like crazy...I have cramping which could mean af is coming and my appetite has increase and that could be cuz I'm bored...period coming or pregnant. Grr! Hate it hate it hate it! Lol sorry had to vent some

I think aside from pregnancy announcements from every direction and from people who you never thought should reproduce, the TWW is the WORST! I hate it. I dread the TWW mostly because I've never had a BFP, but I test, test, test! It's like I can't help myself and the same thoughts run through my head; Am I? Aren't I? I could be, but I've never been. Am I or is it something else? And so on. I hate it! Lol

 

[tessjs]

in same boat, yesterday I was due no sign of AF i have been stressed this month as I wa s told IVF my only hope and amh levels low.I'm 38 had been on pill long term came off it three months ago have had a break thru bleed and two periods and now they have gone AWOL I'm pretty worried..because they went awol two years ago when I had a break.... this is not what i need now....

 

[tamithomas]

amen..2ww sometimes feels like a year, don't forget the day of AF when it shows and your uterus feels like it's eating itself from the insides with that feeling of an empty chamber. Hope we all don't have to feel that feeling anymore soon

 

[tawanamood]

I just want my period to show already! I've been cramping up a storm since Christmas day so I'm more than ready for this cycle to be over. If I don't take more Femara next cycle I won't see AF again until who knows when and at this point I could use the break.

I'm also tired of BFNs. I don't know why torture seems to be my favorite game lately. Ahh..the life of LTTTCer.

 

[tessjs]

amen..2ww sometimes feels like a year, don't forget the day of AF when it shows and your uterus feels like it's eating itself from the insides with that feeling of an empty chamber. Hope we all don't have to feel that feeling anymore soon

Thats exactly how it feels what you just described....mine showed today dead on 28days i've never been dead on 28..and i have cramping for days on end and have felt like rubbish.so over it I could scream...

 

[2have4kids]

I can't even O never mind my af. This last cycle was forced using progesterone and it's cd15 with almost nothing showing on the OPK's. I don't know what to do. Hopefully it's not another 40+ day cycle. Every time I get a chemical (this time is was m/c) my cycles get really long. I'm just more impatient as the clock ticks and more angry. Getting scrappy with the gf's for suggesting adoption, and for suggesting just being happy with no kids. F off already. I want kids and I will get my darn kids. I'm not going to be one of those lonely old witches in an old folks home 20 years after her OH dies with no family around. I will have grandkids to spoil and tell ghost stories to, i will lie my flabby arse on the beach as I tag along for their beach holidays. i'm sooo grumpy this month I could scream and my gf's have all made it worse.

Going skiing tomorrow, blow off some of this steam. Going to have a big fat beer for lunch. I hope your Af comes soon, I'm sending you BIG

 

[tessjs]

I can't even O never mind my af. This last cycle was forced using progesterone and it's cd15 with almost nothing showing on the OPK's. I don't know what to do. Hopefully it's not another 40+ day cycle. Every time I get a chemical (this time is was m/c) my cycles get really long. I'm just more impatient as the clock ticks and more angry. Getting scrappy with the gf's for suggesting adoption, and for suggesting just being happy with no kids. F off already. I want kids and I will get my darn kids. I'm not going to be one of those lonely old witches in an old folks home 20 years after her OH dies with no family around. I will have grandkids to spoil and tell ghost stories to, i will lie my flabby arse on the beach as I tag along for their beach holidays. i'm sooo grumpy this month I could scream and my gf's have all made it worse.

Going skiing tomorrow, blow off some of this steam. Going to have a big fat beer for lunch. I hope your Af comes soon, I'm sending you BIG

I love it!!! I loved how you summed up somehow how i feel and can't quite put in your eloquent words...My AF's are coming between 25-28 days and only very light and almost not there so thats a concern for me..i mean they aren't normal and its three months off the dreaded pill..thats a real worry i would imagine.

 

[sugarpi24]

AF I think is here. That means I had a 30 day cycle! Mine always vary!

 

[2have4kids]

yeay!

 

[awifey]

I usually give up on the two-week wait.

DH and I have gotten so jaded that during one O cycle we start planning what we'll try differently the next month. I don't even test when 1 day late anymore.

This month I'm actually counting the days again…I took Clomid over the counter (am an expat at the moment) and this time the sides of my breasts are excruciatingly sore. Usually I get sore nips every couple months, this is different.

I want to be excited, but am not wanting to get disappointed yet again. A year and a half and every af seems like retribution for having been on birth control for a decade.

 

[awifey]

amen..2ww sometimes feels like a year, don't forget the day of AF when it shows and your uterus feels like it's eating itself from the insides with that feeling of an empty chamber. Hope we all don't have to feel that feeling anymore soon

This last month I likened it to a velociraptor trying to get out of my uterus…

 

[tamithomas]

amen..2ww sometimes feels like a year, don't forget the day of AF when it shows and your uterus feels like it's eating itself from the insides with that feeling of an empty chamber. Hope we all don't have to feel that feeling anymore soon

This last month I likened it to a velociraptor trying to get out of my uterus…

LOL you just reminded me that Jurassic Park comes out on 3D in April lol but back on track before this derails.

I agree though, some of those AF's especially if you're a mint tea drinker like I am but can't help it when I go on my binges my AF ends me up curled up on a ball on the couch eating chocolate and crying until the tylenol or excedrine kicks in particularly on CD1, and a bit of CD2..after that it starts to go down.