I Just Keep Telling Myself...

[dachsundmom]

I try to keep a positive attitude, as I really find that laughter can make anything better, but more and more, I find myself saying the following:

-this too shall pass
-maybe next month
-Brooke, you're adopted, why aren't YOU adopting
-it just wasn't meant to be
-you really aren't too old
-people mean well when they ask "are you pregnant yet?"
-don't POAS
-damn, why did I POAS?
-and my favorite, "you could just get a girl dog"

I don't mean to whine, but I am just getting so frustrated and I am so angry with myself for not being satisfied with the life that I have now...

 

[cebethel]

Aww I'm sorry You're not whining, you're venting. I feel the same way though girl

 

[dachsundmom]

Aww I'm sorry You're not whining, you're venting. I feel the same way though girl

I keep hoping that it will get easier; don't get me wrong, some months are really good, but then others...

 

[Macwooly]

Dachsundmom

Not sure anything I could say at the moment would help but I don't think I have the right words so all I can do is offer that I am hear if you need to talk and to send loads of

 

[Indigo77]

I don't mean to whine, but I am just getting so frustrated and I am so angry with myself for not being satisfied with the life that I have now...

I know what u mean, Brooke...and when I find myself in that place, I have a rebellious day or 2......this TTC nonsense can get so tedious...

This weekend, we had a few drinks, had a few meals out, spent too much money on shopping, and went to see a 3D movie...Now we are lounging and listening to music and I am on the iPad, he is on his laptop, and we're both thinking...we would not get to do much of this with a kid around...

I think you should have a day of rebellion!

PS...I am just thrilled because, for the first time in my life, I am wearing a comfortable bra!

 

[dachsundmom]

I don't mean to whine, but I am just getting so frustrated and I am so angry with myself for not being satisfied with the life that I have now...

I know what u mean, Brooke...and when I find myself in that place, I have a rebellious day or 2......this TTC nonsense can get so tedious...

This weekend, we had a few drinks, had a few meals out, spent too much money on shopping, and went to see a 3D movie...Now we are lounging and listening to music and I am on the iPad, he is on his laptop, and we're both thinking...we would not get to do much of this with a kid around...

I think you should have a day of rebellion!

PS...I am just thrilled because, for the first time in my life, I am wearing a comfortable bra!

I am seeing an iPad in my very near future! I have to really learn that it is not all about TTC, TTOvulate, TTEverything, lol.

 

[Redclaire]

ooh and i bought a new pair of jeans a size bigger than me and they are soooo comfortable and i feel skinny in them cos they are loose!!
OOh and no muffin top again cos they are loose and soo comfy!!
These jeans are the sunny part of my rather crappy day!! but at least there is one good thing eh??!!

 

[Indigo77]

I am seeing an iPad in my very near future! I have to really learn that it is not all about TTC, TTOvulate, TTEverything, lol.

No, it certainly is not...

 

[dachsundmom]

ooh and i bought a new pair of jeans a size bigger than me and they are soooo comfortable and i feel skinny in them cos they are loose!!
OOh and no muffin top again cos they are loose and soo comfy!!
These jeans are the sunny part of my rather crappy day!! but at least there is one good thing eh??!!

See, you inspire me; you have had a really crappy weekend, but you have found something to celebrate. I love it!

BTW, here's one for you; I do not own one pair of jeans, or pants really for that matter. In the winter I wear leggings or skirts,with tights; I don't think I've tried on a pair of jeans in 5 years, lol!

 

[cebethel]

I went fully rebellious today.........I had a soda No alcohol for me, I get too loopy

 

[dachsundmom]

I went fully rebellious today.........I had a soda No alcohol for me, I get too loopy

I will drink your share of the booze then, lol!

 

[readyformore]

I don't mean to whine, but I am just getting so frustrated and I am so angry with myself for not being satisfied with the life that I have now...

This is like you read my mind!!!

For, the life of me, I can't figure out why I don't feel 'complete' or satisfied. Then, it makes me feel greedy because I have so much, and still want more. Then I feel guilty because there are so many other people that have much bigger problems in the world, and here I am complaining.

You're not alone!!!

 

[dachsundmom]

I don't mean to whine, but I am just getting so frustrated and I am so angry with myself for not being satisfied with the life that I have now...

This is like you read my mind!!!

For, the life of me, I can't figure out why I don't feel 'complete' or satisfied. Then, it makes me feel greedy because I have so much, and still want more. Then I feel guilty because there are so many other people that have much bigger problems in the world, and here I am complaining.

You're not alone!!!

You said it sister! Lol. I feel worse because I already have my DD and she should be enough.

 

[Macwooly]

I'm with Indigo on the rebellion

Every time AF visits I spend 1 or 2 days eating all the foods I'm not supposed to when TTC and drinking loads of caffeine and my fair share of alcohol

And I do something which is advised against whilst TTC such as last cycle I had a pedicure but they used aromatherapy oils which they said they would be reluctant to use on a pregnant lady and today I am getting my hair coloured (only a home DIY kit) but it states not suitable for use during pregnancy

But those 2 days make me feel like I'm not putting my life on hold And are enough to help me get my head back in the right place to try again for another cycle

No one is selfish or greedy wishing for a LO or another LO

 

[NorthStar]

Yeah I need to do some positive visualisation myself, trouble is I tend to turn everything in life into a major project and obsess over every angle of it.

I've got holidays coming up so I'm going to obsess over planning my holiday, I've ordered a guidebook off amazon and I'm going to focus on that for the next week or so, it has to be healthier than TTC obsession!

 

[NorthStar]

PS if you ladies want to feel slightly better about your own TTC madness, check out the 2WW section, you don't even have to read the posts, just the titles of the threads, there are ladies on there desperate to test at 1DPO!

 

[dachsundmom]

@Macwooly- good job on your rebellion! The one thing I have never given up in my haircolor. I am Asian, so my hair is naturally very dark and I have one patch of gray hair that I've had since I was 18; I color that section religiously every month, lol. My doctor said ammonia-free haircolor is fine; just look for one that says semi-permanent vs. permanent.

@Northstar- where are you going for this fabulous vacation? I love it being called a holiday, sounds so chic!

 

[Macwooly]

Yeah I need to do some positive visualisation myself, trouble is I tend to turn everything in life into a major project and obsess over every angle of it.

I've got holidays coming up so I'm going to obsess over planning my holiday, I've ordered a guidebook off amazon and I'm going to focus on that for the next week or so, it has to be healthier than TTC obsession!

I'm get obsessed over everything too

Thanks to my obsessiveness I know more about my dogs' health issues and breed specific issues that my normal vet does (but not the specialist vet for my dog) and I know more about diabetes than the diabetic nurse my DH has to see!

Planning a holiday is a fab way to stop thinking about TTC

 

[Macwooly]

@Macwooly- good job on your rebellion! The one thing I have never given up in my haircolor. I am Asian, so my hair is naturally very dark and I have one patch of gray hair that I've had since I was 18; I color that section religiously every month, lol. My doctor said ammonia-free haircolor is fine; just look for one that says semi-permanent vs. permanent.

@Northstar- where are you going for this fabulous vacation? I love it being called a holiday, sounds so chic!

How strange the colour is ammonia free yet still has a warning - I suppose they have to cover themselves I have very dark hair but have a fabulous streak of grey (had since 21) so decided to hide it for a while

And if AF turns up in July I already have my rebellion planned DH & I love off roading but it bounces me around so much I won't do it in 2WW and I wouldn't do it if I get my BFP so we're off roading for a weekend if AF shows next month

 

[Bubba3]

Wow , you girls are like a breath of fresh air .....believe me in this humidity it's very very welcome.
Finally I feel free to come clean and admit this is no 3 baby were trying for. I have felt so guilty for all my obsessing and yes yearning that I haven't even wanted to let on here . I worry about upsetting those who are struggling for no 1 . We have a five yr old who we nearly lost and now has been left with a neurological condition that effects her muscles. She a normal happy girl in every way it's a physical thing but you wouldn't know it to look at her. Then I have my 3 year old. I loved them both from the moment I saw those two lines. This one is proving tricky and harder than I ever imagined. I took a lot of convincing about three being scared I wouldn't be a good enough mum , now it's not happening.
Sorry i didn't intend to make this all about me. I wanted to say the putting everything on hold etc just shows what's amazing mummies you all are and will be. Your putting yourself second that's what it's all about.
Love the rebellion stories . I fell off the coffee wagon ooh get me and even though we've had amazing news today I'm still not having a g and t . Keep going girls your amazing