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LilMiss_91
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And knowing that I can't is killing me
I don't want to replace this baby, not in the slightest. If I could change things and have THIS baby then of course I would. But I can't, and I know that. And I think I've come to terms with it.
But I need to replace this very bad experience with a good experience if that makes sense? I want to feel the positivity I did with my son, the inner knowledge that he was fine. The happiness of seeing him wriggling around, healthy and very much alive on that first scan. Because right now all that is in my head is the horrible feeling I had from the start of this pregnancy, and seeing my poor tiny baby lifeless in my womb
Did anyone else feel lile this? I feel guilty because I feel like it would be like replacing the baby I've lost, and also like saying my DS isn't enough, which of course he is, I love him more than anything. I guess I just need to hear that I'm not the only one feeling like this![Shrugg :shrug: :shrug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/srug.gif)
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I don't want to replace this baby, not in the slightest. If I could change things and have THIS baby then of course I would. But I can't, and I know that. And I think I've come to terms with it.
But I need to replace this very bad experience with a good experience if that makes sense? I want to feel the positivity I did with my son, the inner knowledge that he was fine. The happiness of seeing him wriggling around, healthy and very much alive on that first scan. Because right now all that is in my head is the horrible feeling I had from the start of this pregnancy, and seeing my poor tiny baby lifeless in my womb
![Cry :cry: :cry:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cry.gif)
Did anyone else feel lile this? I feel guilty because I feel like it would be like replacing the baby I've lost, and also like saying my DS isn't enough, which of course he is, I love him more than anything. I guess I just need to hear that I'm not the only one feeling like this
![Shrugg :shrug: :shrug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/srug.gif)