I need a hug today...

[genkigemini]

Today I am a little sad. I feel so out of control of my own fertility right now. This is the first time that I have felt this way since going to the doctor but I guess it was bound to happen.

I feel so left out when everyone is talking about their cycles and BBT. I can't even join in the conversations or even act like I know what is going on because I don't really understand it all. I have never even had cycles closer than 4-6 months apart unless I was on BCP's so I have never had the opportunity to check when I O and that in itself is the most frustrating thing to me. Hell, I do not even know when I should be BDing right now. It is all like a shot in the dark.

I know the doctor says that TTC is a long process but I am so having trouble being patient sometimes. Thank god the doctor said that if I am not regular in 3 months, we will jump start my periods with Provera(?) and then go to Clomid where they will do ultrasounds to know exactly when I O.

I guess today I just need a little support. Sorry for being all emo.

 

[nutty]

You don't need to apologise. Sorry you're feeling so low today, sending you lots of good vibes and a big

 

[wishes]

big hugs hun sorry i cant say anything that'll help... but do moan/sulk/shout/chat rubbish whenever you like!

 

[Vickie]

Completely normal feelings

 

[Nikkinoonoo]

Aww hope you feel better soon

 

[Chellebelle]

All the best and I hope the arrives soon for you (wow there's something I never thought I'd say). You will be on the TTC journey before you know it... well you practically already are!

 

[Mervs Mum]

Most of us here dont feel in control of our fertility regardless of the individual situation - thats why we come here!! Even those of us with 'normal' cycles etc get frustrated at times. Dont worry - come here for a moan anytime.

 

[jonnanne3]

I kinda understand but mine is for different reasons because I have 3 children and had absolutely no problem conceiving them. My youngest is 15 and now my OH and I are ttc after a tubal reversal. We have been trying sonce 5-07 and nothing yet!
I hope things start looking up for you and sending you lots of ! Good luck and vent, that's what B&B is for!

 

[miel]

hope you will feel better soon sending you lots of XOXOXO

 

[genkigemini]

Thanks guys. I had myself a good cry when I posted it... Okay... so maybe I am still crying a little but but thanks so much for the support.

I don't know anyone in RL that is TTC or has even had trouble TTC in the past so I am so glad I found this board full of such awesome women. You guys make me feel better.

Thanks so much

 

[The Catster]

Hey, you can join in on any TTC conversations when ever you like....use this time wen u r waiting to regulate etc as a time of learning so wen the real time comes (some time soon) you will be an expert!lol

And if you are that impatient, I've heard you can buy metformin or clomid on the net.

Hey, I was once in your position...truly, you will get to where you want to be!!!!

 

[diva4180]

We are all here for you hun, no need to ever be sorry about venting your feelings!

 

[HAYS]

hun dont be sorry,its ok to feel sad, im sure we all do at certain points.

thinking of you hunni
xx

 

[Rumpskin]

Bless you, sending you a massive hug to help

 

[toot]

we all have are bad days and just feel like throwing in the towel, I have been ttc for over 5 years and like joanna3 said i too never had any trouble ttc, I had my tubes tide in 93 then remarried in 02 and had my tubal reversal in Oct. of 02, it is a long road but i will never stop tring until a dr. tells me that there is nothing the can o. we are all hear for you...

 

[Tishimouse]

Take heart dear little cyber friend, you are perfectly normal. If we were all the same, we would be "Stetford Wives" and that we are not. You are not alone and there must be loads of women reading these forums without joining in feeling exactly the same way.

My heart goes out to you for the way you are feeling, but you have answered a lot in your message by mentioning all the medical things that can be considered to jump start your cycles. It sounds very promising to me. One of the most important things I think to keep sight of is the fact that each person who posts when they have ovulated, aren't really certain whether they have in fact or not. They are only like me, reading signs and symptoms that they believe indicate ovulation, but without an ultrasound, even that isn't guaranteed.

It's one big game of chance, but we are all normal in our own individual way.

Consider yourself hugged.


Just to make you smile, in my case I am looking out for all the signs of ovulation and pregnancy and in the back of my mind, I'm looking out for signs of the menopause ... you just never know.

 

[Phexia]

Ohh

I know how frustrating it is to be ttc having like 2-3 cycles a year, be glad that your doctor is doing something about it Mine never cared.

I'm sure that before you know it you´ll be in Tokyo pushing a stroller down the street

Here, have some more

 

[suzan]

 

[Always&4ever]

"hugs" I hope your ok chick

 

[faith_may]