Mummy2Angel.
Mason & Max's Mummy
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Does anyone else just feel alone? I dont personally know anyone who has lost their baby, i am great at putting on this brave face to the world but i honestly dont know if i can cope anymore . I dont have any feelings anymore i just dont bloody care to be honest i dont cry that often, i try to but the tears seem to have dried up but this icy pain wont shift, i go to concillig, ive been to doc, i speak to OH, i try to get on with things, i try to go out with friends, i try to do things to remeber max, but nothing is working i cant get out of this hole. The doctor wont do anything ive asked and asked.....but nothing i dont know what im suppsed to do now? Im such a horrible person
I just cant be happy for anyone with a baby or who is pregnant, this girl i work with who is due the same day i was with Max its actuall hatred i feel towrds her i cant even look at her , yesterday she came into work at 1pm and had bought all this baby stuff, cheap tacky picture frames, all those wee 99p things out the card factory and she was swanning around showing it all off and i could just feel this anger inside me so when she left it lying around i squirted suncreamm all over it like the whole bottle i caouldnt control myself, she never said anythng about it but i swear i am actually losing the plot i need help but dont have anyone.
I just Max back in my tummy growing away insted ive got an angel baby boy, on my 3rd month ttc, i just know this isnt my month ARGGHHH someone help me please
I just cant be happy for anyone with a baby or who is pregnant, this girl i work with who is due the same day i was with Max its actuall hatred i feel towrds her i cant even look at her , yesterday she came into work at 1pm and had bought all this baby stuff, cheap tacky picture frames, all those wee 99p things out the card factory and she was swanning around showing it all off and i could just feel this anger inside me so when she left it lying around i squirted suncreamm all over it like the whole bottle i caouldnt control myself, she never said anythng about it but i swear i am actually losing the plot i need help but dont have anyone.
I just Max back in my tummy growing away insted ive got an angel baby boy, on my 3rd month ttc, i just know this isnt my month ARGGHHH someone help me please