I think im broken!!!

[Round2]

I wish I could go back to those carfree pregnancy days!

I know, it breaks my heart that I will never be able to enjoy something that should be so wonderful.

 

[artsymom]

My heart goes out to you! I've experienced only a smidge of what you're going through and am exhausted. You are so brave! I'll be praying for you!

There's two things I think you should do: 1)Write a letter for your baby-to-be to someday let him/her know how much you're going through just to hold them in your arms. And 2)Maybe find a different doctor more specialized in infertility who you feel comfortable asking even basic questions?

I have endometriosis and was told for years I would have little to no chance of conceiving once I was at a point in my life when I was ready to try. 6 wks after trying (the first time) my husband and I were blessed with a positive pregnancy test and had only a few complications and delivered a fairly healthy baby. My precious boy is now 4 1/2 years old and a picture of health. For the last 2 1/2 years now we've been trying to conceive again...but still no baby. I've miscarried twice since January and don't even know if I have the strength to try again. I'm physically and mentally exhausted from this roller coaster! I can only imagine you're on a bit of autopilot at this point, just to maintain your sanity through this! I even felt that way when my doctor started talking about doing tests to find reasons I may have miscarried twice and what we may do for next time around...until I woke up from my fog and wondered if I wanted to keep putting myself and family through this? Or do I want to thank God for my miracle baby and allow ourselves to enjoy the life we have, even if it's just the three of us. I seem to change my mind on a daily basis.

I wish you all the blessings in the world!! Keep us posted - we can't wait to hear some good news!!!

 

[kirkythefruitcake]

thank you to everyone for your kind words and advice!!! sorry i haven't replied to all, been a bit distant from the site :-S
i have an appointment with my fetal medicine/infertility doctor tuesday 23rd november, and have taken onboard alot of what you lovely ladis have mentioned. i have put pen to paper so i don't forget anything!!!!
i really hope you all get your BFP soon!!
i hav just had my af, last friday (that was cd1) after my miscarriage, which was very quick, it was 27 days after it happned. so this month i can start trying again!

artsymom, i'm so sorry to hear about your losses, and i hope you get som answers if that is what you want. i understand how hard it is and yesi think autopilot is the best way to put it! i couldn't imagine giving up EVER. i've not even considered it, i want another baby so bad, i think the hope of just "maybe next month" keeps me going?
i'm not sure, but all i know is i am dtermined to get some answers, and them keep praying for my BFPsticky bean!

good luck and best wishes to all
xxx

 

[Serene123]

wrong thread lol