i want to throw my almost 10 month old at the wall

[riss]

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I'm sorry i've not introduced myself on the other thread but i need some help.... i know the title isnt a good or healthy thought & my daughter isnt in any danger..... i've had this though since she was a new born & its only when she wont sleep!! At first it was because i wanted sleep too- i had to quickly learn the "sleep when the baby sleeps" saying. When i think about throwing her at the wall in the same thought i know it wont do any good, it will make her cry worse!! So why am i thinking that?! Its not like she will magicly go to sleep from it!

Does this sound like PND?! I'm not sure it is.... I've still got sleep issues with my daughter, she's never been a big day time sleeper & now she isnt wanting to sleep at all in the arvos- she will fight till the death! then come night time she is so tired she just wants sleep.... rubs dinner in her eyes & face, will only drink half her bottle.... :'( She is driving me crazy!!

I am waiting for an appointment with a sleep clinic but untill then.....

 

[blondi]

i think you might have to talk to your doctor about pnd :S

 

[beanfluff]

Every mum has moments of stress but im quite shocked that you have thought as far as 'it wont do any good' if you throw your baby against the wall. Um i have to say even at my most sleep deprived i have never considered harming my baby to get sleep

I would suggest getting help of some kind very very quickly as im scared for your baby. I dont really know what else to say but yes you have some kind of problem that needs to be addressed by a professional.

 

[womblemum]

You could try co-sleeping for naps and potentially when LO wakes in the night in order to maximise the sleep you are getting. I don't know how old your daughter is but they definitely start to drop daytime naps at a certain point. My LO (8.5 months) is up at 8am, nap 10.30/10.50 for half an hour to two and a half hours - no logic at all. Recently he has been skipping or fighting the 4.30 sleep meaning he goes from say 11.30 to 7.30 with no napping. I still put him in his bed for half an hour in the afternoon just in the vague hope!

 

[kanga]

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[riss]

Thanks for your replys.....

I have tried co- sleeping which has mostly worked till now....

Upon talking with my mothers group mums today & thinking & really looking/ watching my almost 10 month old i am sure she is being over stimulated during the day- she has no quiet time, time with no noise! from the moment we are awake till them moment she goes to bed our tv is on or people are around talking or there's some other noise- i know tv isnt good for kids esp this age but my hubby works nights so watches tv during the day & we dont have a play room as such but use the lounge room....

So..... i'm going to not turn the tv on when we wake up but wait till her dad wakes up & turns it on- also going to try turn the spare room into her play/ quiet time room.....

LO has also started to bang her head on her matress & rock back n forth when put into bed for her night sleeps which can also be a sign of over stimulisation.

As i said, my little 10 month old isnt in any danger! i would kill myself before harming her but i couldnt stop those thoughts which were made worse when i have tried almost 10 years for her & was almost to the point of selling my arms or legs to get her.... when your tired i guess you think all sorts of things & feel all sorts of things too....

Not to mention i need to learn to go to bed at a decent hour- eg 10pm the latest not midnight or later when baby wakes from 6am plus!

I am still going to go to the sleep clinic in a couple of weeks cos i am still only guessing that this is the problem. I've also a good friend who i can talk to about these feelings & i know i am not alone.

Thanks again!

 

[teal]

I've personally not had them but they're called intrusive thoughts. I'd definitely make an appointment to see your GP as soon as possible.

I've had postpartum depression but I've never thought (or had any intrusive thoughts) about harming my child. I'm not intending to make you feel worse but please speak to someone about it.

xx

 

[Mummy2B21]

I think you should seek professional hel hun

 

[LoveMyBugg x]

Talk to a dr. hun.

Good for you for asking advice before it escalates... which at that pt. it very easily could. Good luck.

 

[tummymummy]

Hey hun

I had lots of thoughts like this when i suffered with pnd and im so glad that you have felt you could admit it that is a big step. I would make an app to see your gp if nothing else than to talk over your fears and feelings. My hv said alot of mums have thoughts of harming their child through difficult times but generally wont admit it so you have done fab by saying that is how you have felt. Or maybe you could talk to your hv hun xxx