. Its been a while since he called and then out of no where he called to ask me if i can go to his house and see him on Saturday 
. I wasn't able to visit yesterday but i whent to visit him today and to see his parents
. For some reason he wouldnt stop starring at me when he saw me i was very confused and didnt know what to do when i saw him 
. We started talking and he started planning on what he wanted to get for the baby i was very shocked when he started that conversation with me
. But it all ended very well i was talking with his sister for a while and i get along with her very well 
. Before i left he invited me over again this tuesday and i dnt know if i should go or not im really confused 
. I hope i get to know if i should go or not before that day comes its really hard to even think about it now what should i do!!!.
wish you the best hope everything goes ok xx
. Not to long ago i started talkin to Cookies dad again but i guess the mood swings took over i kind of told him off
i tried to keep everything in my head but it all came out all of sudden
. I told him that i didnt want anythin to do with him and that i never wanted to talk to him again and alot of other bad things 
. After i told him off i felt really bad for some reason
i started thinking about everything i said and i wanted to appoligize 
. I was talkin to his sister and i told her everything cuz i get along with her very well she my best friend so i told her wat happend
. So last week i called Cookies dad and spoke with him and asked him if he was still mad at me and he said no cuz everythin i said was kind of true but not all so i felt really weird somehow. Yesterday Cookies dad whent baby shopping for the first time and he called me while he was doing that and asked me if i had any of the things he bought so it was very interesting 
. In a way he was talking to me like as if we were going out again so i asked him and out of no where he said u might never kno i was very confused and didnt kno wat to say . Today i was talkin to him and he told me that he was goin to pick me up to go to his house and spend time with him and all that fun stuff so hopefully this weekend i could go over there and spend more time cuz he has off . So anyways the point is that i dont really kno wats goin on between us i started thinking maybe Cookie is wantin us to get back together 
. I really do hope we do cuz i still have really strong feelings for him and maybe he dose for me cuz he calls me alot now and hopefully everything gets back to normal i really want to be a family and a really happy one 
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and really bad contractions
they keep playing with me
. I started spoting but it went away later at night so far no leaking or water breaking or any of that good news The baby shower went great but my cuzins were messing everything up with me and bumps dad they kept on tryin to get in the way and its pissed us all off they kept on talking alot of trash about everyone 
but they cant say anything cuz they look like big fat whales ask capuru lol
Bumps dad and i were together the whole time during the babyshower we didnt argue or anything he was playing with Cookie cuz she was moving alot i had so many bad contractions everytime she moved 
but my cuzins kept on gettin in the way when he tried playing with her we jst wanted to kick them out like crazy
he wanted to play with his baby but they kept pushing away and it got me soooooo mad other than that im doin fine and with bumps dad and everything else so far the contractions hasnt left me and everytime i get up i get really bad pressure pain but the nurse said i cnt go back till my water breaks or till i bleed so i dnt kno wat to dothings r going crazy now i cnt stand the contractions at all they hurt alot
i dnt kno wats going on with everything its all scaring me . Today we whent to wal-mart and i thought i had to go pee i did but then i thought i had to go again instead alittle water came out so i dnt kno whether it was leaking or if it was something else. maybe later on i might go to the hospital or i might jst stay home till friday and see wat they will do. Hopefully she will be here sooner and i dnt have to wait till friday the contractions are really bad today and not goin away things are goin crazy this week i hope it all calms down and not get any worse.
don't forget to send us a lil update when anything happens speak to you soon xxxxxxx
But if anything happens ill let u guys kno and if they give me really bad news i will bust out cryin i dnt wanna have her any later my mom took a weeks paid vacation cuz we thought i wld have her this week and nothin happend it wld be really awsome if i had her during mothers day plus my mom wld be even more excited cuz thats wat she wanted lol well im gnna let u guys go its gettin really late and im in alot of pain right now i cnt take it im gnna go to sleep and hope the pain goes away
not much longer to go before she's here!!!!
