Mummy2o I would love to hear you story. I suffered a loss recently and am pregnant again, I am having a hard time being hopeful that this one will be successful. I am so happy for you that you have your baby and are working on #2...good luck!
My story. DS is 8 and has a different dad to DD. His pregnancy went smoothly, no problems and if it wasn't for the missed period and his constant punching from 20 weeks I wouldn't of known I was pregnant.
His dad and I broke up, so then I got with my current partner. In 2012 I got pregnant again and had a natural miscarriage at 8 weeks. In this time I had 1 HIV scare as I had a booking appointment and bloods done. I had to be retested and it came back negative, which is the best negative result I've ever had. I had a bit of a scare as next cycle I tried to ovulate but had retained product, despite a scan saying I was clear, and the remaining product came out as a result. I honestly thought I was going to die as that wasn't normal.
In 2013 I got pregnant with DD, more or less 12 months from miscarriage as I had an appointment with the gp to get reffed for tests, but instead told her I was pregnant. Also all the morning sickness, cramping and everything else that went with pregnancy. Although she was never a kicker and played hide and seek when getting scans/heart beat tested. Spent a lot of time at the hospital. After the 12 week scan I was able to relax and enjoy her pregnancy. She was born in March of 2014.
September 2014 I found out I was pregnant again. I had terrible morning sickness, worse than with DD. I had my 12 week scan, but for some reason I couldn't relax. As much as I wanted to my gut was telling me something was up. Then on the 22-24 December when I was suppose to be getting ready for DD first Christmas I had a UTI, which caused sepsis and ended up with me miscarrying at 19 weeks on Christmas eve. Due to having sepsis I had to spend the next few days at the hospital so it was awful. But these things happen. We had a funeral for him and it was great.
Now in April 2015 I got my current BFP. As you can probably tell my life is unique to say the least. My OH walked out on us two days after I told him I was pregnant. We have since resolved our issues and working on being a family unit again. I've not really had many symptoms, no morning sickness but very bad gas. I am also receiving pretty bad care so far, despite promises being made last time I was going to get better care. I'm hoping that will change on Thursday as I have a consultants appointment and can tell them my whole life story again, I'm on first name terms with some as I'm down the hospital so often! But I have made it first the first hurdle. I had my 12 week scan, saw a healthy little baby. If I had only had 1st trimester losses then I think right now I'd be contently happy and reassured that this is also a forever baby like DD. However, since I had a 2nd trimester loss although I'm confident this pregnancy will more than likely be a forever baby (I'm a strong believer in gut instinct and I could tell the sex of my babies on all healthy pregnancies but never on either of my miscarriages). I'm still worried that something could go wrong. I'm only up now as I couldn't sleep after having trapped gas in me and it was so painful I thought I was going to miscarry
My advice is take one day at a time. For me I try not to plan to much into the future when it comes to pregnancy and won't be buying anything until after 24 weeks. 1. as I already have a lot of DD things and 2. the things I would be like another car seat and a double buggy will take up a lot of room! Keep distracted. My DD is great at this during the day, but come nap/bedtime I've had to find things to do to distract myself. Also treat yourself. You going to become a mum, there isn't much time to do some once kids are here, unless you happen to have some live in helper like an au pair or nanny. Celebrate milestones. I did my 12 week one and had a little celebrating to myself for making it that far. My next will be at 19 weeks as I'll pass that looming time, then 20 weeks as that's when I can go to the maternity unit with issues and know the sex of the baby hopeful (my gut is girl). Try not to worry to much, easier said than done, I know. But everyone deserves a rainbow baby and I'm sure everyone will get one in one way or another. But however they get their rainbow they will still be a mum
please I just want everything to be okay.
But some light spotting in pregnancy can be totally normal! I hope all goes well tomorrow.
you are in my thoughts and prayers
