I'm back and now my number is five. Someone help!!!!!!

[MrsSmith54]

I won't being officially trying till January because my doctors have forbid it but I need to rant I feel like I'm going to explode with all these emotions. I didn't expect to end up here again How does this happen to me I lose four babies early on and my little rainbow my sunshine arrives as perfect as I could hope for and I lose her 9 days later she was amazing everything I had asked for dreamed of and prayed for. I just don't know what to think I thought losing my angels was hard but losing my rainbow has been a storm I feel I can not weather I just cant grasp the concept. Those stupid statistics my baby should have made it how can she be that 1% and not survive why in the world has this happened........... I'm so lost and angry I just don't know why.

 

[laurac1988]

Didn't want to read and run. I'm so sorry for all of your losses. I hope you have some good support at home xxxxxxxx

 

[twinkle22]

Sorry for your losses hugs to youxxx

 

[sophxx]

So sorry for your loss x

 

[dan-o]

Oh hunny I'm so sorry, this is just horrific, i can't even imagine the pain you must be going through.
I would find the enforced wait to TTC torturous, is it due to medical reason? I find the chance of another rainbow helps numb the pain, even if it's only a little.
Have you had a look in the recurrent miscarriage board? There may be ladies who can help you more in there xxx

 

[MrsSmith54]

Oh hunny I'm so sorry, this is just horrific, i can't even imagine the pain you must be going through.
I would find the enforced wait to TTC torturous, is it due to medical reason? I find the chance of another rainbow helps numb the pain, even if it's only a little.
Have you had a look in the recurrent miscarriage board? There may be ladies who can help you more in there xxx

My recurrent miscarriages are due to low progesterone which they figured out this last pregnancy when I started to lose baby A. Caylee baby B looked like she wouldn't make it but they but me on the progesterone and it worked out. I'm told I have to wait till at least January to start trying given how bad my preeclampsia was and that given the c section they don't want it to rip open but they will be doing preconception counseling in two weeks and I'm meeting with the NICU, infant and pregnancy loss group for emotional support but now more then ever I really need a baby to fill our empty arms and home I know my babies will never be replace and I will cry and miss them and love them till the day I die but I truly believe it will help to have another baby. I'm just emotionally lost I cant get a grip on it. I seem to get worse as time has gone by