Hello so I'm new to this forum so apologies if i make a mess of this post. anyway so let me start at the very beginning and hopefully you dont get too bored reading this! so me and my partner have talked about having a baby, however, we decided now wasn't the right time as when I met him he was living with his brother and now that's my home too but we are going to get a place of our own for the 2 of us and then we can get on with baby making! anyway just over a week ago he took me out for dinner and as the sun was shining (doesnt happen very often) we went for a little walk. then we went back home and as we had the place to ourselves, well you can probably guess. Anyway we got very carried away and ended up having unprotected sex. afterwards we did think we shouldnt have done that but it was too late then so we talked about what to do. We had decided to just see what happens as although now isn't the right time we still want babies and thought, well if this was the only time we can have them then we'd rather have one now than not at all if that makes any sense. anyway i'd worked out that the chances are i wasn't pregnant as i was almost sure i was a week passed ovulation. i still thought there may be a chance as last month I had been stressed and so was late with my period and thought that that may have made things late this month. anyway all last week i had been gettin headaches, was tired, feeling sick, backache. i thought to myself do not think you are pregnant because these could all be symtoms of my period coming and also stress as I have been stressed as well and i didnt want to be thinking about pregnancy to just disappoint myself if it didnt come true. it was hard because a colleague at work has a daughter who has just given birth so I'm constantly listening to baby talk, its my nephew's 2nd birthday this month so i've been out shopping for a present and had to go in all the shops where people are taking their babies. its been hard to avoid! on saturday which is around the same time my period is due, i went to the toilet (apologies if this is goin to be tmi) and there was pinky/creamy stuff. ive never had this before an couldnt help thinking maybe just maybe i was pregnant after all, at the same time i was tryin not to get too excited as i thought there's still a chance it could be my period. so i texted my partner who was at work and said i would keep him updated but i didnt think i was pregnant. then the next couple of days it was more brown and period like so i thought well im definitely not pregnant. but it wasn't as heavy as normal and got it into my head that there still maybe a chance and that it could be this implantation bleeding ive read about on internet. anyway today i realised theres not a chance that i am pregnant as it is really heavy and back to its normal self, what a so the last couple of days have been really emotional, ive been crying so much, i had to go to the toilet today in work so i wasnt sat at my desk crying in front of everyone. my partner has been the sweetest and has promised me a big hug when he finishes work tonight! i just feel as though i shouldnt be so disappointed as we never planned to have a baby yet anyway so surely i should be happy and relieved. but im not im so unhappy, do you think this is normal that i am feeling this sad? i just hope this feeling doesnt last long as its really horrible and ive never felt such sadness before! and now im wondering what we should do, should we still wait for a baby or is my body sayin now is the right time? i just feel lucky that my partner can cope with me when im being this emotional and he's being so supportive of me which is great but i just wich i wasnt crying so much! anyway any advice anyone can give would be most appreciative and as this is my first post i really hope it makes sense.