Hi ladies, hope everyone is ok
Prayer - its usual to feel washed out after delivery, especially with a section. How long has it been now? I was in severe pain for 3 days, and then moderate pain for the first 2/3wks. I too felt drained and struggled to move around or even get dressed in the first two weeks. I think its not helped by having been on bed rest for so many weeks before delivery. I still walked upstairs on all fours for several wks because my muscles were so wasted after bed rest. I wasnt properly back to my old self until 4wks post section, and full recovery was probably at 4-6wks. Not sure how much was also because I had two screaming newborns to take care of lol

Dont expect too much from yoursekf sweet, you've had a hell of a journey
As for expressing - I did it for 6mths with Evie and 4mths with the twins. The secret is in the electric pump quality. It does sometimes hurt, and probably means you're doing it too aggressively. Are you managing to get much milk? How long and frequently do you do it for? Great to here your lo is doing so well, little girls are such fighters xxx
Ich - dont stress over bf. I've had 4 babies and only one took to it with ease! He was a natural feeder amd I didnt have to even try with him. The others wouldnt't latch, screamed at the breast and much preferred the relative ease of the bottle #lazy lol. Every woman beats themselves up if it doesn't just work because we're led to believe it should. My babies are proof that bf ability is as individual as the baby themselves, and some need much more help than others. I ended up expressing for the twins because my good feeder was getting that time with me, where the poor feeder wasn't and I felt bad about that

It was much better for me and them to express and bottle feed both. Do whatever you need to do to ease your stress and make for a happier newborn period xxx
PS - I bled for 6/8wks after vaginal deliveries, but 11wks after the section! It is always initially heavy and gushing for me in the first two weeks, then eases off to a period-like loss for the remainder xxx