Hi ladies,
I haven't been on in a while and that's because Ive been very depressed lately.
I am almost 21 weeks with twins. For those of you who remember, I had a cerclage placed in me at almost 12 weeks.
I have been hospitalized twice for unknown reasons. One, I kept having dizzy spells, where I have extreme hot flashes and nearly faint after eating. Tests came back negative for GD, although, I am anemic and have been on iron. Secondly, I had some cramping a few weeks ago, where they admited me in the hospital for uterine iritability. I am now not able to work, but not on a strict bedrest either.
I thought not working would be great as I could focus on growing my babies, well I have been having major cramping, constipation and vomiting all at the same time. Its so bad until I cannot lay down because of the cramping. After I vomit and pass as much bowels as I can, I am usually better. Nonetheless, I cannot sit in a restaurant or go too many places in fear of the passing out, vomiting, dealing with major cramps, etc.
To top it off, my cervix was 3cm, but because of the vomiting and constipation, its 2.9. I am so afraid this constipation and vomiting everyday is going to cause further shortening and for it to dialate. My pelvic, muscles are so sore and heavy right now.
Each day I pray that I can make it atleast another 8 weeks, but each day it seems as if I have a new symptom or its getting worse. My doctors don't seem concern either, which is part of my frustration. They just tell me its just being pregnant with twins.
The onlything that is keeping me afloat is knowing my husband and I are having two beautiful girls. When I see them on the ultrasound it makes this all worth it.
Pray for me ladies that I will make it atleast another 8 weeks with them. As is, I am only a few weeks away from viability.
Nhood, great to hear from you
I feel so sorry for you having to deal with the anxiety and stress of not only carrying two babies, but also IC after having lost twins before. Very tough
Don't worry about the constipation etc causing stitch problems honey. At 3 your cervix is actually holding very well, and as Chris says the odd mm here or there is nothing to worry about, almost negligible.
As for constant and increasingly worrying symptoms, twin pregnancy does throw up so many additional side effects compared to a singleton. It shocked me just how much, and of course I was never sure what was twin related and what mimicked my daugter's early arrival

Needless to say, it was just a twin thing, and none of the additional stuff was sinister.
Your docs may be right in saying you're stressing and much of this is because it's twins, but it doesn't take away from the fact that you are suffering sweetie, and it's a wonder that you aren't in a worst state given what you've been through in recent months.
Keep taking heart from what I achieved with the twinnies darlin, and I don't think anyone's cervix was as useless as mine in the beginning. I too longed to just have a normal pregnancy without being fearful of doing the slightest thing. Other pregnant women never bothered me as such, but their apparent lack of understanding for my predicament did. Those ladies who can carry on running, lifting and shopping really don't get what it means to be scared even to move from the lounge to the kitchen. You feel too scared not to rest, but cheated out of a normal, happy pregnancy.
We've all been through this my darlin', and any time you need is for support or just to vent, we are here