I'm so glad to read that you had positive news! How are you feeling now? For the record, I don't think you sound cold (let alone like a sociopath!), I think you sound scared for your baby. I've had a few losses in the past and am very slow to bond with a pregnancy now and I actually think that's a good thing. I have two healthy kids and I love them beyond words and I know without the shadow of a doubt that I'll love this baby just as much when it joins us. That doesn't mean that I can't be guarded about my feelings before I know everything is ok though. Since our first loss, I've tried to think of early pregnancy as the chance of a baby, rather than a baby already, and when we had a very early loss at 6.5 weeks, I was honestly mostly relieved that it didn't happen later. So from that point of view I can understand your desire to terminate rather than risk having to make that decision later, even though I can't possibly say what I'd want in your situation. We've had 5 scans already and a low nt measurement but no blood work yet and I'm only now starting to believe this is going to result in a baby for us, hopefully. It sounds like this is your first baby? If that's the case, I can totally see how you'd feel weird about feeling "cold" about the pregnancy before you know you'll be ok, but honestly, I don't think it'll affect your bond with the baby or how good a mother you will be one bit. Try not to beat yourself up about it!
By all means address the things in your past that you think might be interfering with your bond with this pregnancy but honestly, don't worry that that bond won't come. Wishing you all the very best and nothing but plain sailing from now on!