Is this Normal?

[Needabun]

So its been a little while back since I had my very 1st early mc . I believe i just had a 2nd one earlier this month . Since my mc i just dont quite feel the same, almost like a depression (even though my mc happen before i really even knew i was pg), I just feel slow and sad so often.

Maybe its just the thought of knowing that i was a little bit closer to having a little one, as I am currently childless.

Is this normal??

 

[broodymrs]

I'd say so. I had a chemical just before my bfp and it hit me really hard. I do actually have one child so I know I'm lucky in that respect but for me I just felt no 2 was never going to happen. Like the baby I lost was my last chance. It wasn't however as I am pregnant now. Do you know why you've had the early losses? Any progesterone or luteal phase defects that you know of? I'm sorry hun, sending

 

[Needabun]

Thanks for your kind words broddymrs. A while back i was diagnosed with PCOS so thats the only thing i can think would be the reason. Have to go back to the doctor.

 

[broodymrs]

I hope they can give you some answers. I know there's nothing I can say to make it easier but I'm sure one day your rainbow will come. Just heartbreaking now I know

 

[Needabun]

Yes, very. But i have faith that i will get my bundle of joy when the time is right. Thanks so much.

 

[Lawes1987]

I had my 3rd loss in April and I still have days where I feel like my eyes are glossed over and I'm looking out on someone elses life. Where I walk around like a zombie. The best thing to remember is its your grief and you can deal with it however you like and for however long you need.

I keep myself busy, keep my mind busy. And I turn my dates and trauma into facts so I can disengage my emotional response when I talk about it. And I do talk about it. And the more you talk about it, the easier it becomes. There are a lot of people in the world who know how you feel and if you are open and honest with your vulnerability and pain, most people will be happy to support you.

 

[Needabun]

Thank you so much Lawes. Ive recently began talking about it more with others and you're right it does help a lot. Good luck to you on your journey.

 

[Lawes1987]

Thank you. You too. I know the next step is the investigations, so I will wait until after Christmas and probably make that step next year. I just bought a house and moved in so after the year I've had I just want to settle down for Christmas before I put myself through anything else.

Hopefully you get your rainbow very soon. Just remember to take a break, the 2WW is a killer every month. Questioning every sensation and pain and feeling. Its exhausting. And you body will need time to heal. So make sure you take a few months off to just enjoy Christmas and get better before you rush back into trying

 

[maggietrot]

don't be so hard on yourself - it's completely normal - don't forget you have raging hormones too - take care