So I just had my first miscarriage. But my family doesn't know that I'm going through this, I'm so scared as it is. I grew up in a bad environment and swore to be in a good place finacially and to be the mom I never had. But I noticed a few weeks that something wasn't right with my body. I thought that I was pregnant but told myself that I was told by doctors that I can't have kids. Then I started bleeding and it wouldn't stop. I knew something was wrong but was to scared to tell my family, so I told a friend that I knew had suffered a miscarriage recently and she told me that's what was happening. I guess my question is this, is it normal for after this to happen to not want to be touched after going through this? Is it normal to just be depressed about what could've been. Yea I hadn't accomplished all my goals I had set for myself, I still have two more years of college. But I was looking forward to being a mom for a short time before I realized what was happening. Is it normal to be sad of what could've been? And to not what to be touched intimately? To not what to have my stomach touched? This is all new to me and I thought maybe your guys could help me understand whats going on with my emotions. Any reply would be greatly appreciated.