DragonflyWing
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I have postpartum depression (or PND, if you prefer) that's been getting steadily worse for over a month. I can't seem to get anyone to help me
I went to my family doctor first, who put me back on the medication I was taking for insomnia before I got pregnant (amitriptyline, also an antidepressant). However, if I don't take it at a certain time, I'm either drop dead tired before it's time for bed, or I'm super groggy in the morning. Of course, having 4 month old twins makes it difficult to do ANYTHING at a certain time, so more often than not I am not taking my medication, so it's not helping at all. I asked the doctor for something I can take in the mornings, or at least something with a shorter half-life so I can take it right before bed. She didn't feel comfortable prescribing anything because I'm nursing, and she referred me for a psychiatric consult.
I got a call back from my doctor's nurse, telling me that I've been placed on the waiting list for an appointment with a psychiatrist. I asked her how long it would take, and she said a week or two. I felt that even that was too long, and asked what I should do to hold me over. She got back to me later and said my doctor was willing to prescribe Prozac, but she didn't have enough experience with antidepressants to prescribe anything else to a nursing mother. I've taken Prozac in the past, and it didn't do anything for me, so I declined.
I decided to call the psychiatric group's office to see how long the waiting list was, and they told me that it's almost 3 MONTHS to even get a call, much less an appointment. I told her I can't wait that long, and she told me to try another psychiatric group. I called the other group, and they aren't accepting any new patients.
I called my family doctor again last Thursday to ask her what I should do, but she had left for the day and her voicemail said she wouldn't be back until Monday. I left a fairly desperate-sounding message and asked her to get back to me ASAP. Next, I tried calling my insurance company to see if there was anything they could do. They gave me phone numbers for some independent psychiatrists in the area, but they were all closed on Friday, so I left messages for them to call me back. Now it's Monday afternoon, and I still haven't heard back from anyone, not even my family doctor.
In the meantime, I feel depressed, anxious, and angry all the time, and I'm having wild mood swings that make me feel suicidal. I don't want to hurt myself, and I have no plans to, but these thoughts and impulses are really distressing, and I'm just so miserable. It's starting to get to the point that I can't even take care of my babies by myself because I get too overwhelmed and stressed. I work full time, and I can't concentrate or focus on my work at all. I don't want to eat, I can't sleep, and it's all just too much.
Why is it so hard to get some help? My whole pregnancy, it was drilled into my head that I should seek help at the first sign of depression (I have a history of severe depression, so I'm at high risk), and I DID...but it's getting me nowhere.
I went to my family doctor first, who put me back on the medication I was taking for insomnia before I got pregnant (amitriptyline, also an antidepressant). However, if I don't take it at a certain time, I'm either drop dead tired before it's time for bed, or I'm super groggy in the morning. Of course, having 4 month old twins makes it difficult to do ANYTHING at a certain time, so more often than not I am not taking my medication, so it's not helping at all. I asked the doctor for something I can take in the mornings, or at least something with a shorter half-life so I can take it right before bed. She didn't feel comfortable prescribing anything because I'm nursing, and she referred me for a psychiatric consult.
I got a call back from my doctor's nurse, telling me that I've been placed on the waiting list for an appointment with a psychiatrist. I asked her how long it would take, and she said a week or two. I felt that even that was too long, and asked what I should do to hold me over. She got back to me later and said my doctor was willing to prescribe Prozac, but she didn't have enough experience with antidepressants to prescribe anything else to a nursing mother. I've taken Prozac in the past, and it didn't do anything for me, so I declined.
I decided to call the psychiatric group's office to see how long the waiting list was, and they told me that it's almost 3 MONTHS to even get a call, much less an appointment. I told her I can't wait that long, and she told me to try another psychiatric group. I called the other group, and they aren't accepting any new patients.
I called my family doctor again last Thursday to ask her what I should do, but she had left for the day and her voicemail said she wouldn't be back until Monday. I left a fairly desperate-sounding message and asked her to get back to me ASAP. Next, I tried calling my insurance company to see if there was anything they could do. They gave me phone numbers for some independent psychiatrists in the area, but they were all closed on Friday, so I left messages for them to call me back. Now it's Monday afternoon, and I still haven't heard back from anyone, not even my family doctor.
In the meantime, I feel depressed, anxious, and angry all the time, and I'm having wild mood swings that make me feel suicidal. I don't want to hurt myself, and I have no plans to, but these thoughts and impulses are really distressing, and I'm just so miserable. It's starting to get to the point that I can't even take care of my babies by myself because I get too overwhelmed and stressed. I work full time, and I can't concentrate or focus on my work at all. I don't want to eat, I can't sleep, and it's all just too much.
Why is it so hard to get some help? My whole pregnancy, it was drilled into my head that I should seek help at the first sign of depression (I have a history of severe depression, so I'm at high risk), and I DID...but it's getting me nowhere.