My lo was born on Monday and I have absolutely loved bf her, I didn't enjoy feeding last 2 babies and only did it for a few days. This time everything felt much different and happier and I was really enjoying it. Until last night. Lo slept through night on 1st (had to wake her to feed) then 2nd and third nights she just wanted to feed from 6/7pm until 2/3am when she finally settled, I was dealing with this as hubby is home during day so I can catch up with sleep. Last night my milk came in though about teatime. My boobs are rock hard!! I feel like I've had a boob job, I can barely move and can't lift my arms or hold baby anywhere near me! I wanted to bf so badly but at the minute I can't face it, she can't latch properly so that hurts even more! Had to give her formula last night just to help her settle but then I just felt bad because she kept spitting it out and looking for breast, I was really enjoying the bonding through bf and her being all mine! I have tried expressing a little by hand but the pain of massaging breasts is too much, I've tried manual pumping a little to relieve it but I hardly got anything out because again I think they are just to solid! I've been in the bath and had the shower on them but no relief. I'm propped in bed at the moment while dh has lo and Ive got breast pads on because I can feel milk trickling out so I'm not blocked up or anything, I just really don't know where to go from here. I want to achieve this so badly but I don't know how! At the same time this is our last baby and I want to enjoy every second of it not be worrying about feeding and being able to cuddle my baby. Sorry for the huge rant and I don't even know what I want anyone to say I just can't stop the tears!! My dh wants me to just ff so he can help so he's not being massively supportive about bf. I really don't know what I want now, I've read lots of stories online saying stick with it and in a day or 2 it will ease but then there are so many people still in my position weeks down the line! I've got to think of the whole family aswell not just me and baby.